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New Year's Eve

2007-01-04T21:22:00.000+07:00

Hi Everybody...

First of all...

Merry Christmas....
&
Happy New Year....

Wish you guys all the best....!!!!

I know it's very late ...but...wise man said..."Better late than never"...hehehehe...
Hmm...just want to share about how I spent my New Year's Eve with new friends...

It's actually an "accident event" anyway...but I felt so grateful of it...
It's a very tired day actually...i've slept at 12 Saturday nite...and had to wake up at 05.00..
start all the activities...till 7...when I was thinking of going home...Ling Ling asked me to join her for the barbecue party at Pantai Mutiara...
Hhmm...rather than spending it at my room, I decided to join her...
and there I was....
busy with the fireworks...seafood barbecue party...

It's good to be with your friend in spending the New Year's eve ....
(but...why I still missed him...?..)...
there's an emptiness deep down in my heart...
left a little space for someone far away...

"Cinta itu anugerah...
Maka berbahagialah....
Sebab kita sengsara ...
Bila tak punya cinta...."

Hi everybody....I miss you....

2006-11-09T20:20:00.000+07:00

Sebelumnya....First of all...

Selamat hari Lebaran 1 Syawal 1427 H
Minal Aidin Wal Faizin...Mohon Maaf Lahir dan Bathin....
(khusus buat temen temen yang ngerayain...)

Hmm...
The Lebaran holiday brought lots of sad and joy memories....

2 years ago...
Bandung Trip...what a nice trip with my singers & musicians friends....
one of the couple (elia & rely)...broke up...and now found their new couples...
Yanti had run her own franchise business..and just bought a new Xenia...(psstt..she's asked me to drive it to Bandung..again..??)
Febe had moved to Jogya..
Agus had married and maybe planning to have baby...
and the others...??@#$...maybe busy with their own business...
But it's still a nice memory to remember

So...I spent my Lebaran holiday this year by doing some ministries to Jepara...
there are lots of fun there....
I just wonder....all the 'gentlemen' coming on the trip was 6-8yrs younger than me...oh God...sometimes I think that I'm too old for them.....hahaha...
Since we come at the "right time', which is the "mango seasons"...so..the villagers had given us lots of mango fruits...such as Harum Manis. Manalagi, Golek, etc...
every of us...can you imagine...so..the bus was half contained of mangoes....and we had mango party on the bus way home...hahhahaa...
one more fun thing...
since it was a fisherman village....we've been served with fish EVERYDAY...3 times a day...
we have heavy breakfast...(eating rice, vegetable, fish, 'tempe', and sambel terasi)...at 07.00...then lunch with the same menu on 12.00 or 13.00...and dinner, again, with the same menu on 19.00...
but, frankly speaking, their 'tempe' was totally different from the one we got in Jakarta...it's made from all soya bean..pure soya bean...I heard the Jakarta's one was mix with coconut fibre, etc, which made the taste & contain different.
i had lots of new friends from the trip...and I really appreciate each moments we share together...cried together...laughed together...hard time..good time...all the cares...

what a beautiful friendship...

Absen...

2006-09-10T21:18:00.000+07:00

Yah..sebenarnya sih cuma mau absen aja...bahwa blog ini masih ada isinya...hehheee...

Belakangan ini semangat banget buat kerja...masalahnya gue gak punya "buddy"yang ok buat diajak gila kerja....hhhmm...pokoke kalo gak kerja..bawaannya feeling guilty aja.....
habis gimana donk...
kalo gak kerja...gak dapet duit loh...
kalo gak dapet duit...gak makan loh...
kalo gak makan...perutnya laper loh...
kalo perut laper...gak bisa beol loh...

so..kesimpulannya...
kalo gak kerja..gak bisa beol...
gimana gak feeling guilty....
emang enak nahanin "hajat" yang gak mau keluar...?

Gue jadi ingat ama temen gue, si imut Erna yang gak bisa ke "belakang"selama seminggu...ampe bela belain minum "XCNVC"...(gue lupa nama obatnya)...eh..tetep aja gak semulus yang dibayangin.....

Oh God....doa gue...
Hope you send me a buddy...
yang sama "gila kerja"nya ama gue dech Beh...
soale waktu dah makin mepet nech Beh...
Please...do help me Beh....
Amien....

Lama gak NgeBlog...Ada Gempa...?!@$#$#

2006-07-26T17:49:00.000+07:00

Wuihh...lama banget gak ngeblog....

It's been a shock when I heard about the earthquake happened in Jakarta last week.

One week at home made me felt safe & sound...and took sometime to forget about the crowded of Jakarta..and anythings happened in the headquarter till Thursday morning a nice neighbour jokingly told me not to return to Jakarta because of the earthquake. I still thought that he might be wrong on the tsunami & earthquake happened in Pangandaran, West Java. Thus I answered him that the tsunami was too far from Jakarta.

But, when lunch time watching the Metro TV news, I was shocked when I realized that 2 earthquakes had happened in Jakarta, on Monday & Wednesday. Then, not to waste time, I took my handphone and started to send some short messages to friends, asking their latest news...

I was a bit concerned with some friends who was working in a highrise building, like erna on 27th floor, and some of my colleagues at my own office which is located on the 25th floor. I can imagine how "panic" they're..but Thanks God the earthquake happened after office hours...and they've all gone home already.

Thus made me think twicely whether getting back to Jakarta, or just staying at home for couple of weeks. After considering some customer's needs, I decided to go back to Jakarta.

Earthquake...Tsunami...Death...
anything can happned anywhere...anytime...to anyone....
I just can surrender it to God......

Hi Jakarta, I'm back for you.....!!!!

FIFA World Cup Germany 2006

2006-07-01T20:23:00.000+07:00

Sejak ikut ikutan nonton bola di rumah bareng koko gue...begitu balik ke Jakarta, jadi ketagihan nonton bola dech.....

Walaupun Brasil langganan Piala Dunia..tapi seperti Kenny bilang...bosan juga kalo Brasil melulu yang jadi juara...sekali kali gantian kek....bener juga sih...

Tapi ada alasan lain sih gue lebih seneng ama Germany....selain jadi tuan rumah...permainan mereka juga bagus banget....tapi yang pasti...Klose, Ballack, Neuville, Podolski...good looking semua....hehhehee....
Tapi tadi malam sempat deg degan juga ...ngeri ngeri sedap liatan Argentina ngelawan Germany...tapi ...berkat kepandaian Lechmann nangkep bola...akhirnya menang juga...
gak sia sia dech gue tongkrongin ampe jam 12 malam lewat ambil maen game....hehehee....
it's worth....
so...tinggal nunggu finalnya aja nich....

Meeting him...

2006-05-10T22:29:00.000+07:00

So...after couples of months....finally we set a time and have a "nice" meeting....
ngabisin sekotak tissue....

abis ketemu dia..gue langsung sms si indah...biasa..report...
gue : "ndah, gue dah ketemu "dia"..udah ngomong semuanya...gue sebel banget dech...kok gue jadi nangis gitu sih....mata gue ampe bengkak...headache..."

indah: elo bedua kaya orang pacaran lagi berantem donk.....??..pake acara nangis nangisan segala...?..heheee....orang orang pada ngeliatin elo bedua donk....?

gue : hahaha...ga tau lah...

itu kejadian sabtu kemarin...

tapi swear..sejak ketemu kok ya gue jadi semangat ya...?
kok ya jadi suka ingat ingat dia ya...?

am I falling in love with him...?

Oh God.....?!@$#$%#???%$E$?@

Love

2006-05-10T22:20:00.000+07:00

"Love, how can I explain to you
the way I feel inside
when I think of you

I thank you for everything that you showed me
Don't you ever forget that I love you

Love, I know that someday will soon
you'll be right next to me

Holding me so tight
so I'll always be yours

although we can't be
together now
remember I am here for you"

itu sekelumit potongan lagu soundtrack dari "Friends"...(cast by Kyoko Fukada & Won Bin)...

Love....

Will you be right next to me...?
Holding me so tight
So I always be yours...?

Last but not least...

Am I falling in love...?

Aduhhh...kenapa gue jadi terpesona ama "dia" yach....?!?!?!!?##$$%

Curhat

2006-05-03T20:44:00.000+07:00

Tadi pagi jadi ajang curhat di kantor...

ternyata yang ngalamin masalah bukan hanya gue...tapi temen temen yang lain juga ada masalahnya...and gue bersyukur banget punya teamwork yang dukung gue banget...temen temen pada saling meng-encourage..semangat gue jadi bangkit lagi dech...thanks guys...

yang gue heran hari ini...ternyata temen temen yang gue kirain pada optimis...ternyata hari ini gue liat mereka pada ngeluarin air mata juga...selain ngeluarin uneg uneg....

hiks...hiks...hiks.....

Dun judge a book from its cover...emang bener tuh....!!

have a great day...!!!

Bimbang...

2006-05-02T21:51:00.000+07:00

Belakangan ini lagi bimbang....bingung....gak tau musti ngapain...

makanya bingung juga mau ngisi blog ini ...karena gak ada ide nich....

malam minggu kemarin nonton Extravaganza yang ultah ke 2...seru abis....lucu abis...and melo abis...
baru kali ini gue ngeliat pemain yang pada kocak..nangissss....!!!..eh...ini bener bener nangis loh...bukan akting nangis....
yang paling melo waktu si Indi Barends (by the way....emang si Indi ada darah Indonya yah....kok pake Barends...?)..nanyain personil Extravaganza...kepada siapa mereka mau "say thanks"...
waduhhh...gue yang nonton aja ...ampe ikut ikutan nangis...padahal sebelumnya ngakak ngakak...
emangggg dehhh...Extravaganza itu emang paling bisa ngocok emosi orang....
enywey....you guys are the BEST...!!! (makanya gue bela belain nonton tiap hari sabtu & senin)

yah...keep up the good job yah....

Back...

2006-03-26T20:27:00.000+07:00

Sooo...after couple of months....

I have bought roses 2 times...and ...they're all gone...
it's too hot...and i dun have enough time to water them...
It's too bad...

but..the other flowers are alive...hehehehe....
and...
believe me....
when you see them blooming every morning....
you will find a different feeling....
seeing the flowers blooming....

Last week I made a visit to my hometown....
Nothing different .......
Enjoying my local food....
Seeing the elders.....
and still it's hot there.....

Flowers

2005-12-17T21:36:00.000+07:00

Last Thursday when I have market survey in Tangerang, Yugi, one of my colleague, told us about how he loves flowers....actually we were a bit surprise...he is the third men i ever heard about planting flowers....beside my ex-boss & a friend far away there....
and more surprise was he brought us to the flower seller along the street...
so...it just like dreams come true...
I've been thinking about planting my fave white rose by my own...
and now...Yugi brought me close to my dream....
so...I bougth 2 kinda flowers....Rose ...(it's originally yellow...but...it will change to white at the end)...
and the other was Chrisant flowers...same...in white & yellow color...
I put all the flower in front of my room....and told the house gardener, herri, to not throw it away....or not to gather it with the landlord's flowers...

hhhmmm...once the flower bloom..I promise a friend to take a picture and show it to him...hehehee....
this gonna be a very exciting experience...
planting flowers in my busy working schedule....
hehehee...
please wish me luck....

we were starting to practise the choir by last friday, continue with next tuesday, wednesday, and thursday....
wowww....!!!
what a full busy week.....!!!
all i need is just supports from all of my nicest friends...
ciayou...!!!

December.....

2005-12-05T14:14:00.000+07:00

This month always gives special feelings ever...

Peace....
White....
Missing home....
Self Introspection....
Planning......

But the most exciting is waiting for Christmas Celebration...
This year we will have the Christmas Celebration on 24th with 2 services at PRJ..
I've registered to be the choir member for the Christmast Celebration last week with some others singers, of course with Kak Omy as the lead.....She's kinda perfect leader...I'd love it...

Thinking about Devi, who is famous as "Kristal" = Kristen Natal...hehehe....being Christian only for Christmas....I still remember when 2 years ago she asked me to bring her to the Christmas Celebration, since I was one the choirs, I delegated the job of bringing her to the service to my sister, and she told me that Devi had started to cry since she got into the taxi....because of feeling sinfull...and she had used lots of tissue during the service....hahaha....
hhmm...thinking to give her a call to ask her come to the Christmas this year...

What a surprise...!!! Lusi just got back from States....no change...!!
Still so friendly...lively....miss her so much...
Ayu tried to arrange a gathering of all singers this Saturday before end of the year, and Lusi is included...!!

Got a SMS from Metta, telling me that Orchard is so beautifull...!! and I can't help of her invitation to come to Spore...hiks...hiks..hiks....

hhmm....can't wait to play my Christmas songs when I reach home.....

Thanks God for giving us a blessed Christmas Season ever....

A Month...?

2005-11-22T20:06:00.000+07:00

Wow.....A Month....?

yup...21 Oct to 22 Nov...it's already a month since my last blog....I just realized it....!!!

so...busy...busy....busy....

Friends....
Come and go....
I just received emails from a friend who had been long time ago missing....hehehee...
I still remember when he taugth my colleague danced Salsa...hahaaa....
but...i have to let a friend go today ...hiks...hiks...hiks....
he decided to have a better living in some other place....
yeah...it's a bright idea I guess....

Just want to wish you luck and success Fer..!! Remember, you are not alone, okay..?

Birthday....

2005-10-21T19:21:00.000+07:00

October...

My handphone reminded me lots of people I know surrounded me about their birthday this month...

As usual...an sms would follow to be sent to them saying "happy birthday...bla...bla..bla..."..
but...how's the case if he can't be contact through sms...?
I've been thinking these few day...and when today I have to do this...

i found that sending him an online birthday card will be a brilliant idea....
this is exactly what he did to me on my birthday...hehehe....

For surprising him...
I sent him the card he sent to me...heheheee....
(daripada repot repot download lagi...hehehee....)

Happy Birthday Everybody....!!!!

Missing A Friend

2005-10-17T17:28:00.000+07:00

I was thinking of a friend this morning, who is far away there in Beijing, studying Chinese Language...
I thought that she became a chinese girl already....

You know what...
When you ask me who is really "asyik" for "curhatting" with......
then...i think she might come first in my mind....
mo ngomong apa aja bisa...
mo ngomong apa aja nyambung....
gimana gak asyik....?
and...since she had lots of life experiences than me...
she's just like a life-encyclopedia for me...
smart...down to earth...lots of fun....mature...

ooohhhh....I missed her lots....

but...
i've lost her email address...so...how can I communicate with her...?
hikss.....hiks...hiks....
what a pity....

Songs of the week....

2005-10-17T17:11:00.000+07:00

I believe that I might be a bit late in updating this song...but..I found that this is a good song ...

you are my strength when i am weak
you are the treasure that i seek
you are my all in all

seeking you as a precious jewel
lord to give up i'd be a fool
you are my all in all

jesus...lamb of god...worthy is your name
jesus...lamb of god...worthy is your name

taking my sin my cross my shame
rising again i bless your name
you are my all in all

when i fall down you pick me up
when i am dry you fill my cup
you are my all in all

album : shout to the lord kids 2

kalo ada yang mo dengerin lagunya...beli kasetnya aja dulu ya...hehheee....

How you feel when you found people really want you...?

2005-10-09T20:47:00.000+07:00

Bingung.....

When last Tuesday I made a visit to my previous office to deliver some documents .. and helped them for some handicaps with the on going project I've been awarded, I met my nice bos, who is the owner....

I dunno whether it because I left the company in "peace"..so that I was always welcomed to make any visit...and so far...my visits were based on the some assistance they required from me..(makanya welcome banget..hehehee....)...

When I met him in front of the elevator, he, again, told me, that if I feel bored with my new job, then, he and all MTM staff will always happily welcome me back....
This is the -how-many-times he said...and others colleagues did..Ci Pus, Tina, the salesgirls, the customers.....

Thinking about his idea ....
Actually MTM was not so bad...
the salary was fair...
(kata "yang tukang gajian" sih...gaji gue "tinggi" banget dibanding ama yang lebih senior..???////@@????)
commissions was attractive.....
(even sometimes they paid it a bit late..hehee....)
THR was good...
(yah...kadang kadang dapetlah more than one month)
working hours was very flexible...
(mau ijin gak masuk tiba tiba.. gak masalah...mau cuti jalan jalan ..boleh...mau cuti sebulan..juga boleh...pulang jam berapa aja..terserah...kalo gak pulang lebih bagus lagi..hahahaa...kidding)
facilities were not bad....
(yah...dapet mobil, handphone, unlimitted entertainment budget, kadang dapet free trip keluar negeri buat "nonton pameran" doank..not bad kan..??)...
colleagues were friendly...
(yahh..ada juga sih yang reseh and bikin bete.....tapi ya...masih mendingan lah)...
and the bosses were quite gentle...
(and..ehmm...ehm...handsome juga sih....hehehee....)

But...when I discussed it with my boss here...to do both of the job in the same time...he advised me to focus on my current job...(actually he has no private interest in saying this...)...Looking into his eyes when he said this...I saw his disappointment....

so....both of my boss...
want me to be there with them...
then....
how you feel when you found people really want you....?

Bingung......

Bingung....

2005-10-05T17:52:00.000+07:00

Udah lama banget gak ngeblog....

tapi kalo udah bisa akses internet...bingung juga mau nulis apa...
ada yang punya ide gak....?

soale belakangan ini lagi mikirin kerjaan mulu...

nothing much happened to me...

yang pasti...
turut berduka cita buat korban bom bali 2...
turut terkena imbas naiknya bbm...
jadi bisa sering ngeliat orang yang gue suka...hihihi...
lagi jaga makan soale pakaian gue udah pada kekecilan...

Pengunjung Setia.....Regular Visitors...??

2005-09-15T22:57:00.000+07:00

It become one of my habits to check my Sitemeter since few months ago...
And I realized ... I had some regular visitors....

Carla from Netherlands....
Boy from Kelapa Gading...
ketek90 from Germany....
(kalo yang tiga ini emang ketauan banget dari comment - comment yang lucu and asyik banget...hehhee...keep on leaving your comments guys...)..

but...
I found also that I had "some" regular visitors that never left any comment.....maybe they're just interested to read my blogs..or maybe they're interested with what I'm doing....my activities...or the way I'm writing...??(boleh donk ge-er...hueheheee....)

Anyway...I think I should say "thanks" for stopping and reading my blogs...(with any motivations)....

yahhh...ternyata..geneh geneh..gue punya "secret admirer" juga...hueheehee.....
mau tau gak....."nominasinya" siapa aja....

eng .... ing...eng....

"someone from surabaya....(thanks banget loh udah "ngelirik" tiap hari from couple months ago.....hehehe...)
"someone from japan......(welcome newcomer....hope you enjoy the blogs....please feel free to leave your comment...it's free of charge...(ehh..kayanya ini hanya berlaku untuk orang indo deh...hehehe...salah alamat dech...))....

Marriage Counsellor....

2005-09-07T17:27:00.000+07:00

When this noon she gave me a call and told that her husband was so angry with her last night at the time she reached home....shout outloud to her...
I accidentaly became a marriage counsellor...

Can you imagine.....
I've never been in a marriage 'institution' before....
But, my friend....called me....cried....and "curhat"....what should I do.....?
(actually, her husband was so angry with her because she was "missing" during the night...but..at that time, she was with me, attending a ministry in Semanggi, she couldn't contact her husband to inform him, as he didn't bring his mobile phone)....

So...Should I just keep silent...?
Hhhmmm....pusing juga sih.....
But.....I think the best advise was to ask her to be patient....and tried to avoid all the quarrels with her husband....
yaelahhh...gue udah kaya pernah married aja dechh...hehehee....

So....any suggestion from the audience....?

Bencana oh Bencana

2005-09-02T20:45:00.000+07:00

Udah beberapa hari ini..channel TV pada nyiarin berita yang gak enak....

Mulai dari pesawat yang jatuh di Padang...
Badai Katrina di New Orleans....
Mahasiswa Makassar yang berantem....
Protes Pilkada....
apalagi ya...??
Oh ya...Dollar yang naik terus....
BBM yang bakalan juga naik lagi....
harga harga barang barang di pasar juga makin naik....
aduuhhhh........apa kagak ada berita baik buat diceritain ....???

Trauma Tsunami aja blon lewat...sekarang ada yang namanya Badai Katrina lagi...

And ...denger denger....butuh waktu bertahun tahun buat ngebangun New Orleans....
walah walah.....
padahal US itu udah negara yang maju banget...
Tapi gue salut ama si Bush...
Even US itu negara besar...tapi dia mau humble tuh nerima bantuan luar negeri...

By the way....beberapa hari yang lalu waktu ngobrol ngobrol di phone ama Kenny...
katanya sih Dollar bisa naik ampe 15ribu ampe Oktober nanti...
apa bener ya...?
tapi kalo dipikir pikir...bisa aja sih...
soale kalo udah akhir taon gini..biasanya emang banyak yang beli Dollar...
Yah...buat bayar hutanglah...
buat jalan jalan keluar negeri lah...

Tujuh Belas Agustusan....

2005-08-19T22:52:00.000+07:00

Barusan aku 'menjelajah" blog temen temen...wow..."The Story"nya Carla akhirnya udah bisa dibaca...trus si Boy.....nyeritain soal mati lampu..(Boy, gue setuju....soale kalo gak ada listrik...kamar gue panas bangettt...)...trus ada satu pendatang baru..yang punya nama "aneh" untuk blognya, Ketek90...(menurut gue), eh, ternyata isi blognya gak se"aneh" namanya kok...nice blog man...!!..keep on blogging....trus si Bella...emang dari pertama terbit ampe sekarang...statusnya "elow" mulu...kapan diganti bo..??...

and...menurut analisa gue dari berita berita yang gue baca sekilas (maaf temen temen..bukannya saya sombong gak mau baca blognya selengkap mungkin, maaf juga, bukannya saya gak interesting baca keseluruhan blog temen temen, tapi, karena emang adanya keterbatasan waktu yang gue miliki...jadi..maaf temen temen...mohon gue dimaafin.....sstttt... gue keseringan nonton Bajaj Bajuri...makanya jadi kaya gini bahasanya.....huahuahuaaa....)...

ternyata banyak juga yang ngebahas soal tujuh belas agustusan...

oh ya ..gue juga punya ceritaan soal tujuh belas agustusan...tapi yang ini bukan soal "upacara bendera", ato soal "paskibraka"...ato tentang gimana sesak nya Monas kemarin...ampe suara meriam yang hampir bikin jantung copot....

tapi gue mau ceritain soal Bakmi Ayam termahal yang pernah gue makan...!!!

Ceritanya...daripada bengong gak ngapa ngapain di hari libur...(maklum ...mau jadi anggota Paskibraka...tinggi badan gue kurang se-senti....hehehe)...akhirnya gue putusin untuk join ama temen temen di Cell group gue untuk ikutan acara "masak masak & makan makan" di rumah pengantin baru, Ratna, di Sunter......
berhubung gue anggota baru...jadi gue pasrah aja ama Event Organizernya....yang ternyata type Sanguin Menthokkk...thok...thok...(dia gak ngasih tau how will the event work)....

Mulai dari janjian ...yang katanya disuruh kumpul jam 08.30 di rumah si EO... (gue ampe gak sempat 4M + sarapan karena takut ditinggal)...actualnya..gue dijemput si Hera jam 08.45...begitu nyampe di rumah si EO.....ternyata kita udah ditinggal..dan disuruh ikut mobil si B...tau gak seh si B jemput kita jam berapa...?...jam 10.00 booo...!!.
yah...berhubung gue, again, orang baru....jadinya gue cuma bisa ngedumel di depan Hera...tapi emang kita harus nunggu kali ya...soale gue jadi bisa tau ceritaan si Hera about "gimana papanya meninggal...and how she cared about him so much.)..ampe pake acara nangis nangisan segala...hiks..hiks...hiks....

jam 10.00 pun gak langsung berangkat ke Sunter di rumahnya Ratna, tapi harus jemput si Aciau yang tinggal deket Duta Merlin...kebayang gak sih ...dari Gajah mada..trus ke Duta Merlin...trus ke Sunter...

Emang sih, akhirnya kita nyampe juga ke rumahnya Ratna jam 11.00..dalam keadaan perut laper berat....gue pikir tinggal makan doank..ternyata masaknya blon kelar..and kita dengan "terpaksa" diharuskan untuk berpartisipasi memasak...alhasil, jam 13.00 kelarlah semua masakan yang dibuat menunya oleh si EO...
Ada bakmi...lumpia-perkedel (soale kulitnya dari telur..hi...hi..hi...) terus ada cold french fries..bakso "campur".....ada ngohiang...and untuk minumnya ada es selasih + nata de coco + sarang burung...(kebayang gak sih kaya gimana).....
berhubung laper...akhirnya kita semua menyantap bakmi dulu ambil menikmati sup...sorry...maksudnya bakso campur itu loh...

karena porsi mienya cukup banyak (2 gandul mie)...finally semuanya pada kekenyangan + kepedasan (soale yang kebagian ngulek cabe demen banget ama yang pedes pedes...)...

kenyang makan, anak anak cewek pada pindah kamar Ratna buat nonton DVD (sssttt...bajakan) Barbie "Swan"....karena kamarnya dipasang AC, ada yang dengan "sopannya"..hehee...ketiduran di ranjang pengantin-nya si Ratna...hahahaa.....
Barbie kelar, diteruskan nonton Princes Diary-2 (ini yang ke-2 kalinya gue nonton, so, gue dengan senang hati mau jadi "guide" ...hehehe....)

jam 16.00 pak "sopir" udah keliatan mulai bosen...karena di rumah mulu...and ngajakin cabut ke Ancol...tapi sebelum berangkat....kita pada "saweran"....EO kita mulai hitung hitung jumlah belanjaan...and ..eng..ing...eng.....masing masing di charge Rp. 28,000.-...
(gue melongo...baru kali ini gue makan bakmi seharga Rp. 28,000.- semangkuk...and this is really really a self service punya..maksudnya...dari kita oleh kita untuk kita....lebih jelasnya...kita yang bayar....kita yang ngulek....kita yang masak...kita yang nyuci...and you get one bowl "bakmi special pake keringet"....hahahhaa....?!?@$#%???)....

berhubung bakmi udah dimakan...mau gak mau..and dengan sedikit gak rela...semua pada bayar juga ke EO....

Tapi ya itu..udahannya ...dua lapan ribu itu jadi topik paling hangat buat didiskusiin di mobil....
mulai dari how messy-nya si EO ...(maklum Sanguin, again, menthok..thok...thook....)...dalam mengatur tempat & waktu janjian...terus..pengaturan menu yang serba gak nyambung & gak mendukung...and belanjaan yang serba berlebihan and gak diperhitungkan sebelumnya...and bla..bla..bla...

but...one thing I learned from my "Tujuh Belas Agustus" moment...

"Never ever trust a Sanguin to organize an event, unless you want to pay more expensive than you get...!!!"...

Kayanya ...orang orang Sanguin emang tempatnya di bagian cuap cuap deh..alias promotor Event, bukan Organizernya....hehehee.....

Anyway...event harus bayar bakmi mahal kaya gitu..and get one more new lesson....gue juga jadi bisa kenal lebih deket ama temen temen yang laen...
bad lah..for a bowl of bakmi with Rp28,000.-
.....!@*&#^$%@*$W????!!!!!

Back to Internet world...

2005-08-19T22:38:00.000+07:00

Aduhhh...rasa rasanya kangen banget mau nulis banyak di blog ini...

soale banyak pengalaman yang pengin banget gue "curhat" disini...

hhmm...my new job...interesting...cuma yah itu...saking interestingnya...jadi gak sempet nge-blog...hiks..hiks..hiks....
tapi...yah gak pa pa...demi sesendok nasi...segenggam berlian...hahhaaa....

yah...kalo aku bisa capai target ampe akhir taon sih...katanya bakalan dikasih jalan jalan ke Tokyo GRATISS...!!!! ....WOW...senangnya...bisa jalan jalan ke Jepang lagi...yah..sejelek jeleknya dapet lah jalan jalan gratis ke bali...hehehe...dapet duit, trus bisa jalan jalan....wuihhhh....

udah kepikir di otak gue...kira kira gue mau beli apa aja disono....hhmm....yang pasti pengin nyari stocking lagi deh.....abis stockingnya awet banget...tebel..tapi gak panas...trus warna warni lagi....hhmm..apalagi ya...ohya...kosmetik...eyeshadow...blush on...maskara.....lipstick..bla..bla..bla...boleh donk gue manjain diri gue sendiri...hehehe....

jogya oh jogya.....back from holiday....

2005-08-08T18:22:00.000+07:00

Sebenarnya mau cerita banyak soal holiday kemarin..tapi berhubung waktunya mepet...yahhh...segini aja dulu deh...hehehee....

jadi sambil nunggu ikut training...gue putusin untuk holiday dulu for a week..sebelum gue start kerja....

setelah dari Semarang...akhirnya kesampaian juga gue ke Jogya..and ketemu temen lama....
dan yang pastinya...gue dapet banyak masukan dari si pak dosen...thanks ya Kus...!!

I really enjoyed this holiday....Kaliurang....Baron & Parangtritis beach....(ada pengalaman lucu diinterogasi polisi waktu di Baron Beach...hihiihi..untung gue bawa SIM & kartu nama ....)..Walking along Malioboro Street....(upss..ada pengalaman lucu kenalan ama satu cowok younger than me.....hehehe)...and shopping "batik" in Beringharjo traditional market & Malioboro street......having "lesehan" dinner at Malioboro.....if you are interested of Jogya, click the following website : www.tasteofjogya.com

Me & Kus had a very interesting discussion during the waiting time of the train which supposed to arrive at 10.56pm....but...as usual....it's late....the train arrived at 00.30am...
We had lots of topic to discuss with...and I found it's so comfort sharing all my opinion to him...without afraid of being judge...

I am still thinking about how wonderful life surrounded by friends that loved you sincerely....and want to see your life better & better.....
and Jogya, thanks for giving me such a wonderful memories....and peace.....

A Friend is coming

2005-07-26T19:07:00.000+07:00

Just got a call from Hera informed me that Melissa just arrived from Beijing last night, and asked me whether I wanted to join her to meet with her or not...Of course I want.
Melissa is one of important person in my life....
She's just like a sister to me.....
I could share everything with her..... Transparently.....

So..any new story from Beijing...?

And, I got another new order of USD30K this morning...phuifffhhh....!!!!
Thanks God...!!!
You are amazing...!!!

Farewell Party

2005-07-25T19:42:00.000+07:00

Hhmm...it's actually quite "basi" to tell about my Farewell party at the office....but, I think I should post this for you guys....

Friday lunch time, on 15 July, at Pondok Laguna Seafood Restaurant, there we were.....Gathering together for a Farewell Lunch....(Pondok Laguna actually served seafood in Sundanese style...hhmm...gurame gorengnya booo....tahu kipas....yummi....karedok...uhmmm...nyam..nyammm...jadi laper... hik..hik...). I chosed this place since I had quite strong memory this place was the first place we had first lunch together with MTM when I first joined this company 5 years ago....
All the Sales girls, Finance & Account staff were there, it's too bad, one of the funniest guy in the office, Sigit, couldn't make it, as it was heavily raining on that day, which kept him stay in the office after prayer in the mosque....

Ci Pus, whom being the Finance Manager, and our senior in this company told me that, since the company established, there was NOOO one had ever got this privilige of being held for a Farewell party by the boss....so...Could I be so proud became the first one..??...But, I knew it not because of me, but, for His mercy...Thanks God..!! U r the best....always...!!

It was 5 years I spent my 10hrs a day, 5days a week, 4wks a month, 12mths a year....with MTM....
and when I came to this stage, I found it was so damn hard to say event a word to all these dearest colleagues....
To be honest...
Working with MTM became one best thing in my life.....
there were joys....there were sadness...
there were fightings...there were jokes....
there were tears & drops...there were laughters.....
All these became part of unforgetable memories in my life.....
and I will pack them in a nice box, covered it with a beautiful wrapping paper, tied it with a wonderfull ribbon, and put them in a special place in my heart.....

One things for sure...As my boss told me...."Never Say Goodbye"....!!!

French Oral Examination

2005-07-25T19:09:00.000+07:00

I supposed to attend the Oral Examination on last Saturday, but, I escaped...And I have lots of "reasons" for my absent.....hehehee.....

Maybe because of my perferct minded, which will keep me stuck here waiting till everything is well prepared, I chosed to escape...

This project kept me so busy, I've spend 6-7 hours here in the office everyday, starting from 3o'clock and went home at 9-10 o'clock....let no more energy left for studying the French listening & conversation lessons....and still there are so many things not yet done in this office....
phuihhhfff....I couldn't let the chain go out of my neck if I didn't accomplish all the documents & approval done...oh God.....give me more strenght to handle this.....

I dun have anymore time to study my french ....
I dun have anymore time to chat with frens.....
I dun have anymore time to send email just to say "hi" to all my dear frens...
I even dun have more time to send "sms" to my buddies....
hiks...hiks...hiks...hiks......
I think my world become smaller ...and...smaller.....
huks...huks...huks....
And I dunno whether I could perform for this French class anymore since I didn't attend the exam...Tian na....jiu wo ba.....

And now, I didn't really care about the examination anymore......
Que sera sera...whatever will be ..will be.....
At least....I can say "Thanks God"...as now I know how to say "Thanks a lot" in French....hehehee....

Merci beaucoup....!!!!

Taman Safari

2005-07-21T17:43:00.000+07:00

My cousin, Mi cie, come to Jakarta with her two chubby & smart kids....Shen Shen & Baby... last Saturday....

We had a very heavy rain on the way home from Airport....Upss....having seafood dinner on the flood...and had to pay quite expensive for the fish...phuuhhhfff.....hahahaa......

I didn't have much time to spend with them during Sunday, since I had to attend 2 services, so I told them that I would be available after the Sunday Service, it's around 4.30pm, and I got the call afterwards...

Dunno where to go at the very limitted time, I decided to bring them to Mall Anggrek, at least they might like the Ice Ring or Timezone Games Centre..you know kidss.....!!
After having dinner at Sapo Oriental...we had walked around and let the kids had their window shopping....

Monday they planned to spend the day in Dunia Fantasy ( kind of small "Disneyland"), and I told Mi cie that I couldn't join them since I promised my boss to come to office, but I would be available for them on Tuesday, and Mi cie asked me to bring them to Taman Safari.

There we were.....in Taman Safari...with my nephew and cousin...I think that I enjoyed me being an Auntie...hehehe...

I really enjoyed being around the kids....since I found they are very open...innocent...straight forward......honest.....
We left Taman Safari at 4.30pm...still have much time before went back to Jakarta, I asked Mi cie whether she wanted to spend sometimes in Bogor..Tajur..to see some bags or shoes...and she agreed...

I saw she bought some bags for Moy cie and for herself....and also one for me....Lotta Thankss...!!

Again, we had a very heavy rain on the way from Bogor to Jakarta.....it's a cat & dog rain...... and they were succeed to scare us...hiiiii....
But thanks God, when we were about to enter Jakarta, the rain stopped....
Seems that Mi cie was addicted with Anton Seafood, the one that we had on her first dinner in Jakarta....that's why she asked me to go there, and call my two sisters to join with us...

They went back to Batam yesterday, actually I supposed to send them to the airport, but, it's too bad, I had a problem with my car....I've got to replace the old Accu with the new one....

Hhhmmm...I miss them already....!!

Lagi Maless.......

2005-07-18T13:32:00.000+07:00

Lagi males ngeblog....!!!

tapi daripada loe-loe orang visit ke sini trus gak nemuin suatu yang baru...
yah....(demi kalian semua)....gue nulis deh..cuma laporan aja kalo gue masih ngeblog..

gheheheee....

Another Order

2005-07-15T09:45:00.000+07:00

Wawww....

Instead of $50K....guesss....

I've got $90K + $80K = $170K in 2 weeks...!!!!

Phuuhhh.....

What a Amazing Grace...!!!

Capekkk.....Tired......

2005-07-07T17:16:00.000+07:00

Tireeeddddd....!!!!!

I had to work overtime almost everyday...!!!
Meetingss...!!
Preparing Quotations.....!!
Visitting Customers...!!!

Capek buangettt dehh.....

No time to chat....
No time to write blogs....
No time to send emails.....

hiks,.....hiks....hiks......

Counting PO or Commission...???

2005-06-29T20:48:00.000+07:00

tomorrow is the end of June...which means that we should start to count our total orders from January to June this year......so that we know how much commission we earn so far....

Hhhhmmm....i didn't get much orders this year....as I didn't set the goal for it....I just stayed for this big projects...
but...seems that the blessing won't stop from me....

last three weeks....I got.. $20K....
last two weeks .....I got...$30K...
and last week....I got...$40K....

does it mean...next week I will get $50K...?...wakakakkkk........

hhhmmmm...thinking to count my commission...and balance commission from last year which not paid yet....wow...
hehehe.....actually it's enough for a trip to Europe...even more.....for saving.....
but.......I prefer to keep it in my account......so that ...in case I need it.....I can take it....

the problem now...
how can I count my commission if all the documents are not around....?

?!$%&??!!####??//!!!!??//

*pasrah* mode on

Office Prayer....?

2005-06-28T14:06:00.000+07:00

Tadi after lunch...boss nyamperin meja gue....then we had these conversation:

boss : "have you put all your documents in their right places?"
me : "yes...i did it alreay...S***t told me this morning"
boss : "yeah....it's a very hard time...I just want to make sure that you have put them all in their places....Please pray for me....I am a bit stress because of this problem"
me : "Yeah Pak...I will....seems that it's out of our control...but in His control"
boss : "yes......you are right...it's out of our control..."

Last Thursday.... i dunno whether it's a coincidence..or an accident....
a piece of office ceiling ...dropped precisely above his head....
everyone was shocked....but...he was OK.....
I said "Thanks God you prayed this morning Pak, so that you didn't got the accident".
He turned his eyes to me...thought for awhile...and murmured..."yeah..Thanks God I prayed this morning"....

My boss is a catolic...we all knew that first thing in the morning when he reached the office....he would pray....and read the bible ......
He knew I'm christian......
So...it just like a "hiden link" between us....

But....this is the first time he asked me to pray for him....
Incredible.....!!!
And I would love to do that....
Maybe he never knew that all my bosses & my colleagues became part of my morning prayer...
and...I saw lots things changed since the first time I stepped my feet here....
Changed from worst to best.....
Attitude....Character.....Spirit.......
and of course...Moi aussi....
He changed me when I prayed for people.....
I am counting my rest day in this office.....and just want to make sure...
my boss & my colleagues...they will be in my prayer these few days.......
eventhough I didn't see any problem in the office....
But...I just want to be a part of this office's success through my prayer......

MTM Gathering

2005-06-20T18:02:00.000+07:00

So...after postponed for 3 weeks......

finally...we departured from Jakarta to Pelabuhan Ratu....with Queen Ocean Resort as our destination......

Departured from office at 07.00am ...and reached there at 11.30 as scheduled....
the panorama along the way to Queen Ocean Resort was really amazing......

After having lunch together....(it was so damn delicious...Nasi Timbel...Ayam Goreng...Lalapan...Ikan Asin...Sambal...kerupuk ikan..nyam..nyam....)...
after taking some rest.....we all gathered beside the pool...and boss started to introduce every staffs....with their family....
Continued with Dangdut Dancer event... Iis as our Dangdut singer ....and Sigit as the musician...
Games started at 02.30pm....
Tarik Tambang.......my boss group won as the first winner...and my group as the Runner up...
Lomba Bakiak ...... my group won the Runner up again....
Kids's games....everyone is the winner...hahahhaa....(as everyone got the prizes)
Games finished at 04.30pm....me & Tama, Vina, Uun, my sister..we continued to swim......
after swam at the pool...we switched to the beach....
woww....no wonder I didn't see anybody at the pool...everyone was on the beach...
even we couldn't swim at the beach...we still enjoyed the waves.....

Dinner started at 07.00pm......wowww....
the barbeque's smell was so delicous....I can't wait to eat the Barbeque fish.....with "lalapan"..and "sambal"....ada cumi bakar juga....hhhmmm...tempe bacem juga mantep banget deh.....

Kalo gak hujan...mungkin acara dilanjutkan dengan Api Unggun...
tapi berhubung hujan...jadinya kita cuma bisa ngumpul di bungalow masing masing aja...
I spent the night playing billiard with my bosses.....
So..me with Wi...Agus with Sigit...
and our group win the games ....2 - 1...hehehee.......cuma yang ini gak ada hadiahnya....huhuuu.....!!

the next day...started with breakfast.....kayanya kalo cuma makan indomie or roti doank...rasa rasanya gak nendang tuh...so...I initiated to take some rice and started to cook Fried Rice by my own.....
hhhhmmm....yummi....

After having breakfast....Me, Vina, Tama, My sist, we all went to the swimming pool ...and spent sometimes there....Suddently Tama asked me & Vina to go to the beach....so...there we were....

I think I spent almost all morning on the beach...and rain couldn't stop us from playing on the beach.....
from the beach..we cleaned ourself from the sand..and back to the swimming pool...
it felt so good swimming in the rain....

Then....we all gathered in the pool...for the next games...Gebuk Bantal.....
wow...it's interesting...Lusi..Pak Agus..and Riman won the prize.....
Followed by Door Prize for every staffs.....
Lumayan dapet jam dinding plus angpao...hehehee.....

Tired swimming .....we all had lunch.....finished lunch....
again...we all gathered....to announce the winner for all the games....

We left Queen Ocean Resort at 01.00pm...and reached Jakarta at 08.00pm.....
What a wonderfull Gathering....!!!

please click here for complete photos

Lunch Conversation

2005-06-20T16:46:00.001+07:00

Udah lama banget gak lunch bareng Kenny...

Kemarin sore...on my way home to Jakarta from Pelabuhan Ratu.....he called me..and asked me out for lunch.....

Jadilah kita lunch di Mal Ambassador...tumben kali ini dia ngajak lunch di Resto Bakmi Kuningan...biasanya juga makan di foodcourts...lebih seru...lebih banyak pilihan menunya....and lebih rame...hehehee....

after having our lunch...he asked me to drop him at Bank Danamon as he parked his car there...
While driving...as usual...he asked me to introduce my girl friends to him...but..i told him that I had run out of stocks...hehehe....hhmm..but.. I remember one of my friend who had all his criteria......
But..again...he refused it...
Me : "Why?...She's beautiful...smart....gaul banget deh...hehehee...."
Him : "justru karena gaul banget...gue gak suka...."
Me : "oh iya...gue lupa loe type orang rumahan...hmmm..."
Him : "bukan gitu juga....biasanya kalo yang cakep gitu suka belagu...."
Me : "ah masa sih,......gue gak tuh"...
Him: "hahaha.....elo juga belagu"...
Me : "lho...emang gue belagu gimana....?"
Him : " yah...elo tuh selfish....terlalu independen....."
Me : "terlalu independent gimana...?"
Him: "Yah ...independent...kayanya elo tuh gak butuh cowok....semuanya bisa elo kerjakan sendiri....kalo gitu kan buat cowok cowok pada mundur...."..
Me : "lho...emangnya kenapa..."
Him: "yah...loe tuh tau gak sih...cowok tuh kan harga dirinya tinggi...sementara elo kayanya gak perlu cowok...jadi elo tuh nyakitin harga diri cowok.... kalo buat bisnis sih bagus...tapi kalo buat nyari cowok sih...susah"..

tenggg......gue baru ngehhhhh......

Me : "so...gue musti gimana donk....?"
Him : "yah...gue gak tau loe musti gimana..."
Me : "yah.....elo kan cowok...makanya gue minta advise dari your point of view sebagai cowok...."
Him : "yah gimana yah....?."

hhhmmm....pulang ke kantor...I looked for Tanty for Curhat....
"eh, Tan, ...tadi si Kenny ngomong bla..bla...bla...tentang gue....sekarang guenya yang bingung....

abis.......
kalo dimintain tolong ama cewek....dikirain kita manfaatin dia.....
kalo gak dimintain tolong........dikirain kita nyuekin and gak nganggep dia.......
kalo kita yang bayarin makan.....nanti dia tersinggung..(takut dikirain gak mampu bayarin kita)
kalo dia yang bayarin.....ntar dikirain kita manfaatin duit dia.....
kalo kita pergi sendiri...gak minta diantar ama dia....dikirain kita tuh super woman banget....
giliran kita minta ditemenin or dianterin....dikirain kita nganggep dia "supir"..

so...gimana donk.....???? tau ah lap.....

Lunch Conversation

2005-06-20T16:46:00.000+07:00

Choice...

2005-06-13T21:06:00.000+07:00

I take this sentence from someone's blog...."Life is about choice"...

I dun think that he's the one has to face the reality of choosing something important in life...

Typing and dropping my resignation letter to my boss's desk....was not an easy job.....
This is the reality I am facing rightnow...
I have to stop all my activities and spend sometimes to release all the sadness...crying...release all my tears....

And I dunno how much tears I will need for tomorrow...the day after tomorrow...next week..and end of the day working in this company...

It's been 5 years....not a short time to spend with all these nice people...nice bosses....nice customers...nice suppliers.....with all the sadness...office politics...cheates...laughters.....

I'm proud being part of this business...

But...I have decided to move on...leaving all my comfort zone....and ...facing the new challenge.....

MTM...you'll be always in my heart.....!!!!!

Again....??

2005-06-13T10:10:00.000+07:00

It happened again...and again.....

Since I changed my wallet from the colourfull to the black one.....
I had left it in my car...and forgot to take it out once I left .....and it happened again & again....

I still remember....
few weeks ago...when I asked my customer out for dinner......
after taking some cash through the ATM on my way to the cafe....and put the money into my wallet...as usual...i put my wallet under the car seat....to avoid robbery.....as it's unseenable....

Once I arrived....It's already late...and I was in hurry to meet him....
Just grab my beg....and run to him....
Gave him a big smile with my innocent face...I could see he lost his anger..hehehee....

after having a chit chat...we went to his fave cafe around TIM (Taman Ismail Marzuki)...when we finished the dinner....and I was busy looking for my wallet in my bag.....for couple of minutes....I realized...that it was not there....oh God....!!!..how can I be so careless...???

finally...dengan "malu hati"....aku minta tolong ama customerku untuk bayarin dulu..dengan catatan...aku utang dinner once ama dia......hiks...hiks...hiks....
untung aja makannya gak di Black Steer ato Bebek Bali.....kalo iya kan...bisa berabe & malu bangettttt.......hahhahaa....

and....kejadian itu gak cuma sekali....
tadi pagi...ketinggalan lagi di mobil...
waktu perut laper...and i thougth that I really need to eat "Indomie"...baru nyadar kalo dompetku gak di tas......

ohhhh...kayanya emang musti ganti dompet nih.....
yang warnanya stabilo kali ya.....??....
Green...Yellow...Red......ato ada yang mau ngasih gift nich....??....
hehheheheee......

SMS nyasar....

2005-06-13T09:58:00.000+07:00

Kayanya basi banget deh......
"pura-pura" ngirim sms nyasar.....padahal motivasinya cuma buat kenalan...
hehehehee.....

kemarin sore...
ada sms ....
bunyinya : -udah dihapus..hik...hik...hik...gak inget lagee...."
pokoke ...ada "kangen - kangen-an"...gitu deh...
trus ada "suer ..suer-nya segala"....
tapi ...berhubung handphone-ku ketinggalan di mobil dari kemarin sore ampe tadi pagi...aku baru liat sms-nya tadi pagi....

aku pikir kasihan juga nich orang...
mau bilang "kangen" ama orang yang dia sayang kok ya bisa salah kirim ke aku...
kasihan kan...jadi si -dia gak tau kalo ada yang kangen....

so....aku "berbaik hati"..ngerelain 350 perak ilang...cuma buat ngasih tau dia...
"anda salah kirim tuh"....

satu jam kemudian...tiba tiba aku terima sms balik dari dia....

"emang salah kirim ke siapa non.....?"
(not exactly the same...tapi kira kira kaya gitu lah.....)

hhmm....sekarang aku jadi curiga....

kalo sms nyasar...in terms dia salah pencet nomor......
kok dia bisa nyebut "non"....
then...how did he know that I am "non"...instead of "bung"...or "mas"...or "whatsoever"....

so..i come to a conclusion....
he might know me...mais...gak tau gimana mau mulai a "conversation"...jadi dipakailah cara sms nyasar kaya gitu....

hahahha...untungnya aku dulu pernah denger ceritaan temen temen yang juga pernah terima sms nyasar yang se-type....yang ujung ujungnya cuma mau kenalan....and...sebisa mungkin mau ngerjain.....
hahahhahahahah...BASIIIII BUANGEEETTTT.....!!!

J-Lo..... oh .....J-Lo......

2005-06-13T09:39:00.000+07:00

Berhubung si Elia gak punya blazer merah, jadi aku merelakan blazer merahku untuk dipinjam ama dia for the 1st and 2nd service on Sunday morning kemarin....

and....

berhubung itu blazer dah gak pernah dipakai since couple months ago...aku dengan malu hati bilang ke dia..."kayanya loe musti kasih perfum deh supaya gak terganggu ama aroma lemariku...heheheee...."

dan...J-Lo-nya pun tersebar ke setiap inchi blazer merahku itu.....
kemarin after the services sih dia mau berbaik hati nge-laundri-in blazer ku itu baru dibalikin ke aku....soale waktu makan bubur...and saking enaknya tuh bubur....dia ngerelain beberapa sendok bubur lezatnya buat blazer merahku itu...hiks..hiks..hiks......(kok ya bukan owner-nya yang dibagiin bubur...kok blazernya....?..protes....!...protes....!....protes....!!!)

tapi...aku juga gak tau kapan ketemu dia ..and bisa aja si Ayu tiba tiba instruct ke kita kita buat pake blazer merah...makanya aku putusin untuk menolak secara halus tawaran dia untuk nge-laundri-in blazer ku itu.....biar aku aja deh yang nyuci-in tuh blazer....

seperti biasa...aku selalu taruh blazer di sandaran jok mobil depan....

hhhmm....lumayan...ada wangi baru selain parfum mobil Citrus ku itu....hehehee....

temen temen Elia bener deh...itu parfum J-Lo...ampir sama baunya ama Rinso.....suerrr dehh....
so...selama aku di mobil...ada 2 aroma....Citrus & Rinso.....
dan hebatnya lagi....itu parfum ternyata aweeettttt buangettt....
padahal disemprotnya kan kemarin pagi...
eh...ampe pagi ini...mobilku tuh masih wangi "Rinso" itu lohhh....!!!

weleh...weleh....J-Lo...J-Lo......
kehadiranmu emang susah di-singkir-in.....
kehadiranmu juga emang long lasting punya....
lama lama...wanginya enak juga....
he..he...he......

French Guy is Coming

2005-06-09T19:13:00.000+07:00

Today had Bruno first day visit...and spent couple of hours with the project update meeting....

The meeting started at 11 and we had lunch break at 12.45...continue lunch di basement...an Indian & Chinese Cuisine....the most closest resto since we ran out of time...
back from lunch...had a bit discussion about the project I'm handling...
and left office for meeting with customer.....

Back here in my office at 06.30pm..."fatigue"....sleepy....but still have to wait another half an hour to go home.....

Since my customers are French guys...so...today...I've been surrounded with lots of French guys...They are very attracted actually....yeah...even in their old ages...they're still attracted....
and I always adore with the way they treat the ladies.....gentle...respect..romantic...hihiii.....

I think no wonder...why French is so called as a romantic place...maybe because of the people are so romantic......

hhmm....can't wait to step my feet in French....and am surrounded with the romantic spirit....
hehehee........

Reason to Live....

2005-06-08T18:08:00.000+07:00

Have you ever think about the REASON of your life......?....

........Being rich..... as richer as Donald Trump or Bill Gates....?.......
........Being wellknown......?.....
........Being a CEO of a huge company.......?....
........Marry a beautiful wife...or ..handsome guy......?....
........Travelling all over the world......?....
........What else.....?.......

and the next question is....

Will you be satisfied with such things once you achieve it.....?

When I heard about this song last night in the Profetic meeting.......I've been reminded with
the REASON I live...
the REASON I am here today....

It's already been ten years since first time I fell in love with Him.....and from that time....He changed my life so much...with His unconditional love......

It is HIM...

the REASON I live....

A Heavenly Father....

A Faithfull Soulmate....

A dear closest friend....

My hiding place....

My refuge....

My strength....

and only in Him....

I'm completely satisfied.....

As Josh Groban sang......

You raise me up....so I can stand on mountain....
You raise me up...to walk on stormy seas....
I'm strong when I'm on your shoulders....
You raise me up to more than I can be......

~~~~~~~~~~

Thanks for offering me your strong hand to catch me when I fell & hold me tight.....
Thanks for all the opportunities for me being success.....
Thanks for the unconditional love & forgiveness.....
Thanks for inspiring me to create and write this blog....
....You...cheer up my day.......

And I want to sing & dedicate this song from the bottom of my heart...only t YOU.....
..... My Dear & Lovely ......
.....Jesus Christ......

~~~~~~

(refrain of With All I Am, Hillsong album)

Jesus I believe in You....

Jesus I belong to You....

YOU're the REASON that I live....

the REASON that I sing...

with all I am....

~~~~~~~

Shall I do that.....??...

2005-06-07T15:58:00.001+07:00

When I went home with Hera from praying in Church last night...dunno why.....tiba tiba gue jadi kepengin ngasih tau dia...my real motivation joining her Cellgroup....

so...sambil nyetir.....ditengah macetnya Olimo oleh mikrolet2...bus2...mobil pribadi2..yang pada gak mau ngalah.....mengalirlah segala penjelasan gue ....ceritanya jadi kepanjangan...and...finally tanpa gue sadari....."masuk" ke babaknya "Lita"....

and...Hera who is super Plegmatic Peace Lover....suggest to initiate a "wonderful meeting" for us......kalo gue sih terserah aja....

udahannya.......otak Melancholic-gue bekerja terus ...en terus....en terus....
kira kira.......gue mo ngomongin apa ya....??
hhhmm....yang pasti ngebelain kalo gue tuh bener...
trus....some advises supaya kalo ada misunderstanding or miscommunication...or mis- mis yang lain...supaya buru buru klarifikasi ama yang bersangkutan..jangan ke pihak pihak lain yang tidak tau duduk permasalahan......

after having my prayer this early morning......otak Melancholic gue masih terus mikir....

Kira kira...wise gak ya kalo gue bertindak seperti itu....?
setelah pikir pikir....akhirnya...gue putusin....d'accord...vini ...vidi...vici....
gue dateng...gue liat...gue menang....(eh...betul gak ya urutannya....?)

Pikir punya pikir....ngapain juga gue ngebelain diri......?
Pikir punya pikir....kenapa gue yang musti "sok" ngajarin dia ...?
Pikir punya pikir.....kenapa gue "berusaha" ngubah dia....?
That's not my job, it's His's job....

So...I decided....becoming the "Easter Lamb".......(again.....????)

Apalagi after having discussion with Yuli.....her wise advise for me was just being humble aja deh.....

Kata orang pinter...Mengalahlah untuk MENANG.....

Masih muter muter di otak gue...
"Shall I do that?"......

My New Look ....My Saturday Moody.....

2005-06-06T08:44:00.000+07:00

I've been thinking about having my new hair look since few weeks ago.....cutting ...colouring.....

and...finally.......I did it last Saturday....

After considering some advises & references from couple of friends....(thanks to Elya...thanks to Mein ......thanks for the wonderful beauty salon references gals)......I decided back to Leony Beauty Salon .....the first place I've been introduced with this so called "Wonderful Highlight / Coloured techniques... ..(ssttt ....menurut orang-orang yang ngeliat hasilnya ....katanya bagus banget......hihihiiii....)......after having some chit chat with Ci Leony, the owner (she's still looking great as 4 years ago).......baru gue tau...she's going to move to Muara Karang...!!!!.....wahhh...makin jauh donk........

pengin foto-in my new look sih....soale udah ada yang nungguin dari minggu lalu.....hehehe......for someone that I promised to give you my pics...please be patient......

As scheduled I supposed to teach my sists driving at 4pm.....but...she's so late....and it really pissed me off.....thus, I decided to go to Pasar Baru to buy some personal-beauty-stuffs.....the perfect way to release my anger....hahahhaa.....while busy shopping & bargaining....got an sms from Mein ....asking me to join her & her husband playing badminton.....( i believe she had "someone" for me there.....hehehee....)...but..i won't ruin the day because of my bad mood......so..i replied her and politely refused her invitation....

Total kerusakan hari sabtu kemarin + yang di Pasar Baru...200ribu aja...I got my new earings.....new hair accessories....new pajamas....new eyebrow pencil...hair vitamins....etc....ck..ck....ck......then I learned it was not really good shopping with your bad mood.......

when i became this moody....i kept asking myself....what had happened to me....?..why I was so emotional.....? But...something should be blamed ....so...I blamed my pre-period-moody-hormonal that caused all these mess.....my bad mood....etc...except my new hair look...as i dreamed of it long time ago....hehehehe......

Worldschool Photograph

2005-06-03T12:55:00.000+07:00

Hi.....

ada website lucu & seru abis.....
kita bisa tau foto-foto kita waktu sekolah dulu coba deh linknya dibawah ini...

http://www.worldschoolphotographs.com/index1.htm

Selamat mencoba.....!!!

Glenn Fredly

2005-06-02T16:06:00.001+07:00

Belakangan ini dikantor aku sering nyetel lagu lagu Indo.....dan anehnya selalu ada lagunya si Glenn Fredly......

dan...berhubung itu lagu disetel seharian...kita jadi sering automatically nyanyiin lagunya dia ...and jadi ngegandrungin lagunya dia ....tapi emang si Glenn lagi naik daun seh...terbukti dari banyaknya lagu dia yang dinyanyiin ama orang orang......hehehe...gak usah jauh jauh deh...."Karena Cinta"nya Joy or Delon yang orbitan Indonesian Idol itu....kan ciptaannya si Glenn......

Nah....lagu lagunya si Glenn yang enak didenger...and lagi naik daun itu...gosipnya...diciptain waktu dia baru putus dari si geulis salah satu anggotanya AB-Tree itu loh (yang udah punya misoa sekarang)......sekaligus sebagai ungkapan rasa cintanya yang begitu besar terhadap itu cewek....wahhhh...romantis amatttt......!!!

buat yang mau kenal Glenn lebih jauh, langsung aja browse ke website-nya dia....
nich gue kasih contekan lagunya si Glenn...tapi 3 aja yach...supaya gak kepanjangan.....he..he..he..he.....

Akhir Cerita Cinta
by Glen Fredly

sandiwarakah selama ini

setelah sekian lama kita telah bersama
inikah akhir cerita cinta

yang selalu aku banggakan

didepan mereka

entah dimana kusembunyikan rasa malu oh...

kini harus aku lewati

sepi hariku

tanpa dirimu lagi
biarkan kini ku berdiri

melawan waktuku

untuk melupakanmu

walau sakit hati

namun aku bertahan

Sedih Tak Berujung

by Glenn Fredly

saat menjelang hari-hari bahagiamu

aku memilih diam dalam sepiku

saat mereka tertawa diatas pedihku

tentang cintaku yang telah pergi tinggalkanku

aku tak peduli

sungguh tak peduli

inilah jalan hidupku

ini aku, genggam hatiku

simpan didalam lubuk hatimu

tak tersisa untuk diriku,

habis semua rasa didada

S'lamat tinggal,

kisah tak berujung

kini ku kan berhenti berharap

perpisahan kali ini untukku

akan menjadi kisah

Sedih yang tak berujung

January

by Glenn Fredly

Berat bebanku

Meninggalkanmu

Separuh nafas jiwaku

Sirna...

Bukan salahmu

Apa dayaku

Mungkin benar cinta sejati

Tak berpihak

Pada kita

Reff:

Kasihku.....

Sampai disini kisah kita

Jangan tangisi keadaannya

Bukan karena kita berbeda
Dengarkan.....

Dengarkan lagu.....lagu ini...

Melodi rintihan hati ini

Kisah kita berakhir di Januari

Selamat tinggal kisah sejatiku

Wow....pergilah

Email Server Downnn.....!!!

2005-06-02T15:35:00.000+07:00

Dari kemarin sore ampe hari ini..kantor pada hebohhhhh.....!!!!

Soale pada gak bisa ngirim or nerima email.....berhubung kita pada baru ganti dari Outlook Express ke Microsoft Outlook...jadi pada berasumsi bahwa Microsoft Outlook itu jelek....hahahhaa.....and berhubung belum lama orang IT kita nginstallin Mozilla Firefox ganti Internet Explorer...kita juga ngejadiin Mozilla itu kambing hitam or trouble makernya sehingga kita pada gak bisa ngimel....hihihiiiii.......

kebayang gak sih gimana senewennya orang orang kantor.....yang sudah terbiasa dengan connection internet yang high speed mulai dari nyalain kompie ampe kompie itu di shut down ama office boy waktu dia mau ngunci kantor.....

and dalam itungan menit..gak tau berapa puluh email yang dikirim kesana kemari....mulai dari email yang berisi gosip gosip hangat.....sampe gambar2 hebohnya Putri Indonesia with her swim suit waktu di event Miss Universe kemarin di Bangkok....dari email yang cuma say "HI" to customer...ampe yang nguberin PO ke customer......mulai dari email nguberin Principal buat ngirim barang cepet ampe yang nanyain shipment.......
Untung masih bisa browsing...sambil nungguin satu email terkirim...walaupun lamaaaaa bangettttt...and sering faileddddd.....!!....

dari kemarin email account yang baru diregistered ke CBN (ada colleague baru, jadi aku ditugasin untuk nge-register-in email account dia ke CBN)...failed mulu....colleague baru itu jadi "sedikit kesel"..berhubung "menurut dia"....semua bisa ngimel..kok dia aja yang gak bisa...dia gak ngerti kalo kita semua juga ngadepin problem yang sama.....hahahhaa.....

berhubung sampe sekarang emailnya gak mau berfungsi juga, rasa responsible sebagai "register email officer"...hehehee....akupun langsung telp ke CBN...nanyain kok ya email barunya temen ku itu gak bisa nerima.....

baru selesai mencet no telpnya CBN...setelah terdengar nada pilih.....ada nada "lain" yang itdak familiar sama sekali....

mau tau bunyinya...?
"mohon maaf, saat ini ada gangguan pada email server kami ".........

hahahhaa......ternyata yang bermasalah adalah email servernya-CBN toh.....????
so....
kasihan deh loe ....Microsoft Outlook....
kasihan deh loe....Mozilla Firefox.....
kasihan deh loe.....etc....etc....etc.....
he ...he....he....he....hee.....

Cowok Baru Temenku.......

2005-05-30T19:24:00.000+07:00

tadi malam dikenalin ama cowok barunya si elia...
good looking...cute....looks smart....kayanya tajir......anak rumahan...kalem......yah..pokoknya cocok lah buat si elia.....hehehehe....

REUNION......

tadinya kita janjian mau reuni karena si Febe lagi ke jakarta, sementara selasa nanti dia bakalan pindahan ke semarang...kemungkinan dia mo pindah kerja ke Jogya....gak tau kapan ketemuan lagi...yang pasti aku udah bilang ke dia kalo july nanti aku mau sowan ke semarang....dan dia usahain ketemuan disono......hehehheee......

so...kita pada janjian jam 8 ngumpul di sate tulang depan apartment gading...tempat kumpul kumpul dulu waktu kita masih satu les-vocal.....berhubung kak omy juga lagi WL di gading....

aku udah sms-in kak Omy and Elia sekitar jam 5 an...and elia langsung ok-in....and kasih tau kita kalo dia tuh mau ngenalin gebetan barunya...hehehe....suittts..suitts...suitsss......!!!
abis ganjelin perut di rumah yanti...kita bertiga (yanti, aku & febe)...berangkat ke kelapa gading dari sahardjo jam 6.30...supaya gak telat telat amat makannya...and supaya gak telat telat amat nyampenya soale takut macet di cempaka putih......

eh...waktu nyampe di kelapa gading....aku coba telp-in kak Omy.....kok ya gak diangkat angkat ya HP nya...?...
waktu udah jam 8 ...baru berhasil dihubungi...walah walah...ternyata kak Omy dah nyampe rumahnya di Tanjung Priok......!!!!..gimana gak panic...kita bela belain ke kelapa gading karena dia lagi di kelapa gading..begitu nyampe kelapa gading...dianya malah dah di Tanjung Priok...wakakakkakakkk......

akhirnya kita makan duluan bertiga sambil nungguin Elia yang lagi on the way ke tempat kita...(soale aku udah mulai puyeng karena telat makan, ternyata pempek & tekwan yang aku makan di rumahnya Yanti gak nendang tuchhh...!!)...

HE SHOWED UP...!!!!

lagi asyik nyikat sate tulang...(berhubung dah lama gak makan sate tulang...hehehe...)..eh..si elia datang...ama COWO nya....hihihihhi......
terus dikenalin.....karena tangan kita pada kotor akibat "tempelan"...bumbu sate tulang...akhirnya kita cuma "ngelambai-lambain" tangan aja ke cowoknya....sembari nyebutin nama masing masing...(pokoknya persis absensi anak TK deh....hehehe....)
eh...aku pikir tuh.......cowoknya orang Hongkong gitu loh.....abis si Elia......ber-English ria ama dia....
finally...ketauan juga tuh cowok bisa bahasa Indonesia juga kok.....tinggalnya di tebet timur.......sekarang lagi mau kerja di Stanchard.....dulu kenal Elia waktu masih di HSBC...wah....jodoh emang gak jauh jauh ya.....hehehehe.....

?!?!?!?!!?!????...KOK BISA YA....?????

berhubung mereka hanya "stop by" aja...so....mereka langsung cabut setelah acara "kangen kangenan" selesai....15 menit mereka jalan....aku nanya Febe..."Feb, nama cowoknya Elia tadi.... apa ya...?"..
Febe dengan ke-khas-annya....yaitu..."innocent face-nya".....bilang ke aku..."aku gak tau...tadi gak jelas namanya siapa"....weleh weleh...lha wong dia tuh posisi duduknya paling deket ama tuh cowok aja gak denger......gimana dengan aku yang duduknya jauh.....
karena aku tuh orangnya curious banget, akhirnya aku tanya Yanti..."Yan, tadi denger gak, nama cowoknya Elia siapa ya.?..aku gak kedengeran...".....Yanti bilang..."aku juga gak tau...tadi gak kedengeran juga".........

wakakakakakhhhh....bertiga pada ketawa...kok bisa ya.....??...
..kebayang gak sih...si elia tuh bela bela in bawa cowoknya buat dikenalin ke kita kita...eh...malah kita pada gak inget ato gak tau namanya siapa...coba...??...sopan sekaleeee.......!!!!...hehehee.....

UNFORGETABLE MOMENTS......!!!!!

anyway....it was an unforgetable moment........!!
Kumpul kumpul lagi.....ketawa ketawa lagi....ngakak bareng lagi......konyol konyol an lagi......curhat curhat-an lagi......!!!

setelah kenyang makan...nganterin si Febe balik..terus Yanti...and baru deh aku pulang......

kangeennn dehhhh ama kebersamaan kita duluuuuuu......!!!!
tapi gak komplit rasanya tanpa Kak Omy...helen...debbi...santi......hiks....hiks...hiks.....

Feeling Neglected...Felling Happy.....

2005-05-30T18:04:00.000+07:00

two hours ago...i felt so bad....so blues.....
feeling neglected....by my boss....
I just thougt that he's not paying so much attention to my jobs....but...care enough to the others sales activities....he asked their working progress....he congratulated on their winning orders.....he's angry when they failed...and keep updating their activities day by day...
frankly speaking, i felt jealousy with them....why he didn't treat me the same way....?

When i'm feeling blue......i would need someone to talk about it with......
Asked some advise from "man" side....
then share with my senior colleague, Mbak Rina, we've been in the same department before...she's been with this company longer than me..so...she knew well who my boss is.....I couldn't stop my tears when I started to share my blues.....

She gave me some advises...of course to courage me....
She said..that boss might trust me 100% I can do my jobs excellently without any supervision from him anymore...while the others still need....and considered my sales performance last year.... was an additional point for me.....

You know what....
It was so couragefull....!!!
it made me feel much better....since she got to go home..then...i decided to go home too....
but...i made a stop at one of our sister's company, located next to my office....
My Sanguin seemed need to release my "thousands" words out from my mouth & my head....
so....I had a bit chit chat with the director....who is so friendly guy....
after half an hour talking with him...
i felt much happier.....

Now...I got to go and keep this happy feeling inside.....and have this so great desire to write my blogs...

hehe ...hehe....hehe....hehehe......

na..na...na...na...na...na....

Will You Be There For Me, Friend.....?

2005-05-25T19:58:00.000+07:00

A dear friend....told me after the second service last Sunday...."Hei, semuanya udah "beres"..."....

I still didn't get what she meant by "beres".......
So..she said......"we ended up"........
I was stunned.....dunno what to say...neither what to do......

both are my friends......
we've spent lovely times together.......
I could see how she loved him...and he loved her.....

and now.....she told me..."we ended up"...
i dunno when it happened.....
I knew that they have some obtacles......
I didn't see a sad face....tears......
but...i could feel....
how hard that was for her......

since i dunno what words should I said....so.....i changed the topic.....
and asked her to spend this this saturday afternoon at the gym with me.......
(there she can tell all her blues at once.....)

I dunno whether this is the right things to do or not.....
But...If I was in her position......
I would need someone to stand by myside......
someone to be there for me.....
giving her/his arms to hold me.....
giving me her/his shoulder for me to cry on.......
giving me courages......
giving me supports.....
cheering my day up.......
involving me into lots of positive activities where i could forget him......and all our memories.....
having funs......and laughing out loud together.......

What Are Friends For, right........*smile mode on*

Shanghai Babe by Wei Hui

2005-05-25T18:13:00.000+07:00

It was a hot .. hot .. holiday....yesterday.....

I asked my sister & her friend to join me to Mal Kelapa Gading for having lunch and spent the rest day rather than staying in my-sauna-room....hehehee.....

But, I changed my mind on the way, instead of Kelapa Gading, we went to Mal Taman Anggrek...it's been quite several months never stepped my feet there.....
I knew that it must be very crowded during the holiday...but...i really really needed the aircon.....

After having lunch....i told my sister to seperate...and would meet at the lobby park in the next 2 and half hour....so..it's free time for everyone......

I stepped my feet to the bookstore...Kharisma....looked for some novel...I needed something lighter material in this hot weather.....

There're lots of Japanese novels...and comics......But, my eyes turned to the Chinese novelist.

"Shanghai Babe" written by Wei Hui......
It's actually about love, life, and sex.....a girl life in the metropolitan city in China named Shanghai......
A girl dreamed to be a writter......moved and stayed with her impotent boyfriend in a 3 rooms apartment.....she just knew that her boyfriend was impotent....but...her love...keeping her staying with him.....but, her desire of having sex...turned her eyes of having affair with a German-tall-gorgeous-married-with-one-child-guy......

She thought that she would not love her affair....but...the more they've spent the time together....had grew kinda odd feelings........
and when her boyfriend knew about the affair...he's quite sad and spent his rest life back to a drug addicted...

At the end of the day......she got nothing.....
her boyfriend died beside her on their bedroom......over dosis.....
her affair left her...back to Germany.......back to his family....

I'm just thinking.......
what will we do.....
if we are that girl.....and we are living in the real world......
....you love your boyfriend (even he's impotent) and have no strenght to leave him.......because of your loves....
....on the other side.....
....you need to have sex badly.......something that your boyfriend couldnot provide......

Will you turn to "an affair"....(a relationship without commitment)
or....
will you stay with your "impotent" boyfriend for the rest of your life.....(with a bunch of your loves)....?
Can you.......?

It's really really a dillemma........

After finished the book....i could feel like I was in Shanghai......hahahhaaa....(the way Wei Hui describe each angle of Shanghai was really amazing......two thumbs for this young girl for the wonderful novel)

Friendship

2005-05-19T17:35:00.000+07:00

Did you know ???
(thanks for a dear friend that left this email in my mailbox)

Did you know that when you envy someone, it's because you really like that person?

Did you know that those who appear to be very strong in heart, are real weaklings and most succeptible?

Did you know that those who spend their time protecting others are the ones that really need some one to protect them?

Did you know that the three most difficult things to say are : I love you,Sorry and help me The people who say these are those that actually need them or really feel them, and they are the ones you really need to treasure, because they have said them.

Did you know that people who occupy themselves by keeping others company or helping others are the ones that actually need your company and help? Did you know that those who dress in red are more confidence in themselves?

Did you know that those who dress in yellow are those that enjoy thier beauty?

Did you know that those who dress in black, are those who want to be unnoticed and need your help and understanding?

Did you know that when you help someone, the help is returned in two folds?

Did you know that those who need more of you are those that did not mention it to you?

Did you know that it's easier to say what you feel in writting than saying it to someone in the face?But did you know that it has more value when you say it in the face?

Did you know that what is most difficult for you to say or do is much more valuable than anything that is valuable that you can buy with money?

Did you know that if y ou ask for something in faith, your wishes are granted?

Did you know that you can make your dreams come true, like falling in love, becoming rich, staying healthy, if you ask for it by faith, and if you really knew, you'd be surprised by what you could do. But don't believe everything I tell you, until you try it for yourself , if you know someone that is in need of something that I mentioned of,and you know that you can help,you'll see that it will be returned in two folds.

DID YOU KNOW THAT YOU COULD ALWAYS COUNT ON ME???... AT THE MOMENT, TIME AND PLACE THAT YOU NEED ME, CALL ME, I WILL BE THERE WITH YOU !!!!!"

One day, we mad people will change the world...or we are already changing it " THE BALL IS NOW IN YOUR COURT... If the world were to end in 24 hours,all the phone lines, chat rooms and email will be saturated from people sending messages to others, saying: "I regret having made you feel bad", "Pardon me", "I love you", "I hold you in high esteem", take good care of yourself" and sometimes "I have always loved you, only I never told you".

Today, the ball of FRIENDSHIP is in your court, send this to those who trully are your friends (including me if I am one). Also, do not feel bad if no one send this back to you in the end, you'll find out that you'll get to keep the ball for other people want more ...

Company Outing

2005-05-16T14:13:00.000+07:00

I think I should cancel my trip to Semarang - Solo - Jogya for the next 2 weeks, since the rumours last week that Boss would approve to have company outing by next holiday....

Next 24 May is a public holiday to celebrate Wesak day....... I planned to have a trip to Semarang starting from Friday, 20 May, which would take 2 days off (Friday & Monday)....staying 2 nites in Semarang, continue to Solo & Jogya....back to Jakarta on Tuesday, 24 May.....

But, my boss "greetings" this morning was " Are we going to have company outing next holiday...?..hhmm...I'm thinking about going to Queen Ocean Resort...what you guys think....?..."

You know, we think about "surprised"......never heard about the name.....so..all girls become curious about it....and started raised questions to my boss.....

"Where was that...?"....
"Is that interesting...?".....
"Is that a nice place?"....
"Can we have fun there....?"....
and bla...bla...bla.....

...boss said....it's a resort located closed to Pelabuhan Ratu...about 3-4 hours drive from Jakarta....it's a nice place...I've been there before....and you can browse and gain more information through their website, www.oceanqueenresort.com ...
so..who's gonna be the "Event Organizer?"....

Then we pointed Lusi out as the EO to arrange all the outing....hehheee.....

After having my lunch today..... I tried to browse to their website...
Wowww.....it's an amazing place.....I've been to Pelabuhan Ratu and Sukabumi before...but this one is sooooo cooooolllll...!!

Things to do there:
- Motorbike and mountain bike trips: explore the surrounding area.
- Trekking, hiking, birding and animal watching in Gunung Halimun
- Giant marine turtles laying eggs at Ujung Genteng.
- Surfing.
- White-water rafting.
- Deep-sea fishing
- Scuba diving
- Boat Trips, Snorkeling
- Massage

Things to see there:
- Tea Plantation
- Bat Cave
- Hot Springs.
- Local Market
- Night life.

hhhmmm....*Happy mode on*....

Blogger

2005-05-16T09:47:00.000+07:00

Last Saturday, in my French class....a friend, for the second time, asked me whether I joined with Frindster or not.....hehehee....but, before I answer her, she reminded that this was her second time's question......

hhmm...I was jokingly answered her that I wouldn't join the Friendster, as I was going International already...hahahaha.....
then, I asked her whether she had a blog or not, so that I would be able to linked hers to my blogs...

Surprisingly...no one knew about Blog.....!!!
So....blogger become an interesting topic during the breaktime at the class.....
some friends heard about the "noisy" around us...and started to join the discussion....actually not a "real discussion"..but..could be said as a "free tutorial" about blog......

I just advised them to browse www.blogger.com/start to start and make a blog...I told them that it is very simple......and easy......all of them seems interested...and could't wait till Monday to browse the site....

Ok guys...once you get your own blog...please add me to yours, ok......!!
good luck to all of you.....!!!

7 years ago......

2005-05-14T18:44:00.000+07:00

Today.....7 years ago....14 May1998.....
the most traumatic riots happened in this country's headquarter, Jakarta....and also some big cities in Indonesia......
more than 1,000 people reported killed by the riots....and still did not know how many people which was not reported killed......

I still remembered....when I walked out home at 4pm to the main street which was closed to my boarding house...the sky was covered with smoke...people run in the street with their stolen stuffs....banks ... shop...offices...all were robbed....from the bridge...I could see some cars were burned on the street with the fire....I didn't see any 'chinese' face around there.... most offices closed for 2 weeks because of the riots...including mine.....

few weeks later...it become a disaster when the news spreaded out among the Chinese community ..... gosh...the riots targets actually were the minority Chinese..... lots of Chinese girls were rapped....and lots of families were robbed....Thanks God for giving me such colorskin.....The International Airport become so busy with the Chinese either Expart which were panic and tried to fly far away from Indonesia...I heard that they spreaded lots of money along the highway so that they could reach the airport.....till now, some of my senior colleagues, still do not want to step their feet to Indonesia because of the traumatic riots....

Today TV News is flashing back about the riots...According the Volunteer Team for Humanity, the riots actually was so well organized.....

Woman "Curhat" vs Man "Advise"

2005-05-12T19:31:00.000+07:00

I really need someone to "listen" to me today.....
Just "listen".......

Actually I didn't ask any advise....it doesn't mean that I am too arogant to be advised....
nope......

This reminded me 3 years ago...when my Elder told us about Man World & Woman World.....
He had a Sanguin wife......that couldn't live without speaking thousands of words in a day........
and when she got into her worst time....she would need double portion.......maybe triple.......
As a man....when her wife started to tell him about her burden...stories......he started to explore lots of "solution" for her wife.....because that was applied for his Man World...when someone telling you something, it meant that he/she need your adivse or solution....
...he found it's strange...as...if he gave solution to his friends, they would appreciate it....and thanked him alot.....instead, his wife become more stressfull......
so...someday...they sat down & talked about it.......
His wife told him...that...actually...if she shared her burden to him......she just need him to "listen"...just actively listen to her.......as actually...she need it to "release " these thousands words from her head......and need a freelance "supporter"..from her loved one.....
From that time...he became understood....and everytime her wife shared her burden...he would actively listen to her....then...gave her his big hugs.....and just said to her "I love you, honey, I believe you can".......

And from the books I read..."Man from Mars, Woman from Venus"....it confirmed what my elder told us......

Man.......
If we, woman, share our burden to you....
It doesn't mean that we need bunch of your excellent solutions.....
neither.... your judgement......
nor your laughs.......
yes, we thank for your efforts....but..
it was not the most important things we need at that time.....

You might think that it was the best for us....
but...please keep it for a while.....
as...what we need is just......
.....LISTEN to us.........
please......
be there for us.........
support us.......
letting us know that you will stand beside us........
to give your courages.......
and let us have your big warm hugs......
(this one of the reason I fell in love with him...)

All these kinda supports from you.......
Just like a light ...that can lighten up our day.......
It's an avenescent....cheer up our heart......
It's a beautiful a song..... singing in harmony.......

You may call us "Ego"........
As this is the role applied in our woman's world.......
and the keys to our heart......

Travelling Europe

2005-05-11T09:27:00.000+07:00

I've got a website about Euro Rail this morning...and started to browse about this....
It become so exciting since it's a very simple and easy way to travel in Europe....
wowww....can't wait for the wonderful europe journey.......

hhmmm....now..i'm checking my savings........
hope the money will be enough for the trip.....heheheee....

Did anyone outside there have some recommendation of interesting places there....?
help....help......help.......!!!!

2005-05-09T11:31:00.000+07:00

I use to turn my Handphone alarm me at 5.30am everyday....when it rang...grabbed it...turn it off...then slept again for another half an hour... so..my wake up time is actually at 06.00am everyday or 06.30am...hehhehee.....

My working hours start from 9 till 5, but, as a salesperson in the company...I get more flexibility to manage my working hours....

Reach home at 09.00pm....unless I feel boring in the office and with my jobs...thus I will skip and watch TV...meeting with friends...or just lying on my bed.....

Thus become my -time-lifestyle...since I was in the college....

so....when last Sunday I have to attend the Sunday Service at 7 till 11.00am...while we had to gather in the hall at 6.30am...which meant that I had to wake up at 5.30...and turned my alarm at 05.00am...
This is soooo hard mann.....!!!

I had tried my best by sleeping earlier at 10.00pm...hope could wake up at 5.00am....but..seemed that my eyes didn't want to co-operate...
Finally I made it at 06.00..and have my 30minutes to shower....dressed up....made up......cooked and ate my instant noodle...again..brushed my teeth...heat my car's engine....and drove to the church......thanks God that it was Sunday "early" morning...so..it just needed 10minutes to reach there.....but..still i was late for 10minutes....hmmm....

what made me afraid was my voice range....but..i found it perfect yesterday....
one thing I couldn't deny was i was sooooo sleepyyyyy.........2 seats at my right...I saw Elia laid her face to the armchair......Agus told me that she's sleepy also....we actually use to serve for the 4th service in the afternoon instead of morning service ...but..since one of my-old-friend rang me few days ago to switch the schedule with her...so..there I was...with my sleepy eyes.... It's good to know then that I had one "companion"......hahaha........

I learned that when I sometimes loved my routines....woke up at 6.00am...with fresh mind....
rather than 05.00 with sleepy eyes.....hahhahaa.......

maybe next time I have to gently refuse when my friend ask me to replace her for the morning service...as I really C A N N O T handle it.....
(gak enaknya jadi orang baik gitu loh...........)

What's Your Personality Type?

2005-05-09T09:43:00.000+07:00

The Guardian

You're a natural leader and quick, logical decision maker.Goals are important in your life, and you take many steps to acheive them.You enjoy interacting with others, mostly through work related activities.Your high energy level means you are great at getting things done!You would make a great teacher, judge, or police detective

The Caregiver

You are sympathetic and caring, putting friends and family first.A creature of habit, you prefer routines and have trouble with change.You love being in groups - whether you're helping people or working on a project.You are good at listening, laughing, and bringing out the best in people.You would make a great nurse, social worker, or teacher

The Duty Fulfiller

You are responsible, reliable, and hardworking - you get the job done.You prefer productive hobbies, like woodworking or knittings.Quiet and serious, you are well prepared for whatever life hands you.Conservative and down-to-earth, you hardly ever do anything crazy.You would make a great business executive, accountant, or lawyer

The Nurturer

You have a strong need to belong, and you very loyal.A good listener, you excell at helping others in practical ways.In your spare time, you enjoy engaging your senses through art, cooking, and music.You find it easy to be devoted to one person, who you do special things for.You would make a good interior designer, chef, or child psychologist

The Executive

You are a natural leader - with confidence and strength that inspires others.Driven to succeed, you are always looking for ways to gain, power, knowledge, and expertise.Sometimes you aren't the most considerate person, especially to those who are a bit slow.You are not easily intimidated - and you have a commanding, awe-inspiring presence.You would make a great CEO, entrepreneur, or consultant

What Are The Keys To Your Heart ?

2005-05-09T09:22:00.000+07:00

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

2005-05-09T09:16:00.000+07:00

Born on the 8th day of the month, you have a special gift for business, as you can conceive and plan on a grand scale.

You have good executive skills and you're a good judge of values.

You should try to own your own business, because you have such a strong desire to be in control.

You are generally reliable when it comes to handling money; you can be trusted in this regard.

Idealistic by nature, you are never too busy to spend some time on worthwhile causes, especially if managerial support are needed.

There is much potential for material success associated with this number

A Day with Lily

2005-05-04T20:29:00.000+07:00

This morning.....

I woke up at 2.30am ...and couldn't sleep anymore...
tried to finish watching "Hitch"......still couldn't close my eyes...
then....watch another "Sin City"....why was it all dark...?....
finished....still couldn't sleep...
headache.....?....why all these "gas" won't leave my stomach....?
masuk angin lagi deh...tapi ...siapa yang bisa ngerokin...lha wong masih jam 4 pagi....walah ...walah....
yah...finally...aku kerokan sendiri.... ampe jam 5...kubangunkan adikku...
she supposed to study for her Midtest actually....but...seems that she enjoyed her sleeping....
akhirnya usahaku "menyenggol nyenggol" tangannya berhasil membangunkan dia dari mimpi mimpi indahnya... hahaha.....berhasil...!! berhasil....!!
setelah kerokan...merah semua...walah...udah sejak kapan ya...?
perasaan aku jarang tidur malam lagi deh...tapi ya udah lah...emang itu "angin" demen banget nyinggah di badanku...hehehee....(sempet kepikir mau aku foto-in sih...hasil karya seni "kerokanku"...trus dipublish di blog, tapi setelah aku pikir pikir...ntar malah menginspirasi orang lain untuk berpikir yang tidak tidak lageee.....hahahaa...)
leaving my home to office at 10.30am....but...made a stop at the workshop to refill my machine oil...oh God...It supposed to be refill 2000 kilo before...but..I forgot...now I changed the oil to Syntetic one, the workshop lady advised me to use Shell instead of TOP 1, she said it's better....of course it's better...the price is also "better"....hahaha...who cares....
Reached office at 11.15am....
did some paper works....and re-confirmed with the girls for buying them lunch at Mal Ambassador....it's too bad, Tina couldn't join us...actually...i bought them lunch because of Tina...she's so kind....and help me a lot in all my orders...so..i promised to buy her lunch someday...after I found a suitable schedule ....

This Afternoon.....

Nyampe kantor udah hampir jam 2...enaknya jadi sales ya itu....dilarang ngiri buat yang suka "iri"...karena...katanya "iri tanda tak mampu"...hehehe.....
Telp sana sini...ketawa hahaha...hihihi....isengin temen.....chatting....
Finally I could finish some pending quotation..which had disturbed my mind these few days....
and left office to take some inquiry from my customer....

This evening...

Balik ke kantor lagi....ngetak ngetik.....kayanya aku emang gak bisa jauh dari computer deh....tangan rasanya gatel kalo gak nyentuh tuts compie ku...
again....prepared some paper work for Friday...
before wrote this blog....
I took sometime to browse my previous posts....
and saw David....his smile....his cute face...his funny....
his innocent face....make me feel something......????
Looking at his pictures are the perfect way to end my day in office at 8.30pm....

Have a nice holiday everyone......

Holiday

2005-05-04T19:39:00.000+07:00

Tomorrow will be a public holiday...so we'll have "harkitnas"...hehehee...

Thinking about holiday...hooohhhh...i miss the time spending my holiday abroad so mucchhhh....
Thinking about going to Spore to visit Metta, Ivan, & Gladys....how are they...?
Can gladys say something now... maybe something like "auntie lily..."....?...hehehe....
explore Malaysia .... the nearest country ..... There are still so many places I had not been before.... then fly to Bangkok for some shopping....hehehe....
sounds interesting.....

But the projects are on going...I can't miss it..... this gonna give me lots of money.....

hhmm.... September may be the best time to do all this holiday......
okay...can't wait for that.....

Blue Sky

2005-05-03T17:31:00.000+07:00

That's one of the blue sky pictures I took last Friday on my way home from Cilegon....I felt so sleepy after having lunch at Pizza Hut in Cilegon town...so...on my way home..i stopped in the highway for a while....asked my sister to give me some massage on my back and shoulder.....i love being massaged...hehehee...
after her massages....i walked out from the car.... and took some pictures on the skies...it was something that you won't find in Jakarta....

Blue Sky.....

thus I made 4 pictures...will put them one by one at my desktop...watching the blue sky...made me feel so good....peace....optimist....happy.....

Vengeance.....

2005-05-03T08:51:00.000+07:00

A dear friend said to me yesterday "Vengeance is Mine"..reminded me 3 cases in my life ....

1st Case...
When Melisa, my lovely sister in Christ, told me about vengeance....a man owed 500thousand Rups to her boss, never paid it...at that time..it was a big amount of money, and they really need the money for the company....but her boss forgave him and choosed to do nothing (actually he caould just reported to police to catch the guy, or paid a debt collector to ask the money back, but he didnt't) He let Him do the vengeance.....few months later...they heard this guy found in a river with his dead body....

2nd Case...
Melisa's testimony inspired me not to take revenges or vengeance ...so when a colleague of the previous company I worked for, tried to kick me out because of her jealousy and her ambitious to take my place ( I was one of the owner trusted people beside the Director & Marketing Manager, since i had responsibled for the Commercial Division)...she tried to hurt me by her satires....fooled me around...and deceived me...made my works complicated...and even tried to look for "partner" to kick me out, by having an affair with the Marketing Manager.....It's one of my hardest time and one of the reason to leave the company. I didn't want to have war with her neither told all these "suffers" to my boss....So..when I resigned..my smart boss investigated the reason why I left....and found hers....
2 years ago...I've been invited to an ex colleague's marriage...and had this "unplanned reunion party" I met with her affair guy, smiled to him, had a bit chit chat..and asked about her...as I didn't see her showing up at the party....my ex driver...told me honestly what had happened to this jealousy woman...She's been put in a very low position in the company with a very small responsibilities...my boss (the owner) hated her lots...she had no more power even to ask the office boy to do something...at the contrary, she claimed herself as "the office manager" and "claimed" the power to control of what was happened in the office....tat's the way my boss did to suspend his staff actually....letting her jobless in the office...and at the end of the day...she would resign shamefully of being jobless....That's actually his strategy....
I couldn't believe it...I never took any single thing to take revenge...instead I just put her on my prayer list....forgave her...but..He did the vengeance for me with the so unpredictable way ever...

3rd Case.....
A colleague, senior, boss's cousin, finance manager of my present company....She thought she was powerfull with all her "condition"...so..when I was in....and "negatively assumed" that "me" would disturb her "powerfull position" (my boss treated me as same level as her..since they're so proud of me and satisfied enough with my jobs)...made her felt so bad...Thus she tried to put me in troubles...deceived me...fought with me several times...and I still remember ..she shouted out loud in front of every body and the Director...asked him straight away to kick me out in front of me..!!..and asked him to choose...whether "me" or " her" ...one of us should leave the company rightaway...
Can you imagine...how bad is she..and how bad I feel about her...?
But....I choosed not to say a word....I'm not kinda girl that like to fight neither quarrel...I was just shut of my mouth...no self defence...again...I just could put her at the top of my prayer list...prayed and forgave her EVERYDAY....even blessed her life....
One and half years ago...I heard from my other colleagues....Her son put her in a very big depression...he runaway from home...didn't want to come to school...even asked her mom to move to another school...and it happened several time ...till NOW...It was so stressfull....she didn't come to work at least 1 day a week...sometimes even more than 3 days...a week...or just come to office for half day working..then went back home...because her "troublemaker son"...she's still lucky since she worked for her cousin...otherwise..i believed she would be fired...Her troublemaker son had costed her lots of money...lots of time..lots of tears...she even lost idea how to get out from the problem...and I still remember how she begged me for taking her son to church....

And there are still so many cases I experienced in my life....
When someone hurt me...or cheated on me...or treating me badly....
I don't have to take the revenge....He will do that for me...as I am limitted...but He have no limitation....
One thing for sure..they will be on the top of my prayer lists.....
And one day....He will amazingly open my eyes and my ear...seeing and hearing about what my "enemies" have as a caused of what they had done to me...even worst than what I felt....

As I believe...you might call it "karma"..but my bible said...
...the one that bless you so they will be blessed....
...the one that curse you so they will be cursed....
and...
...what you sow..will be what you reap...

Kejepit....

2005-05-02T10:20:00.000+07:00

hari ini lagi mo nulis pake bahasa indonesia aja...
tadinya sih mau nulis pake mandarin...sayangnya..keyboardku gak ada tuts mandarinnya...
trus..kepikir mau nulis dalam bahasa perancis...
cuma...khawatir aja ntar blognya kependekan...soale yang aku baru bisa segelintir doank...hahahaa.....

sebelumnya..thanks buat Carla yang udah inspire me buat nulis blog ini...

ceritanya si Carla lagi "kejepit" di tengah tengah "cold war" temen sekolahnya....

aku juga pernah loh ngalamin kaya gitu...

ceritanya di kerjaan aku tuh ada bahkan sering temen kantor berantem.....padahal mereka tuh satu divisi....kebayang gak sih...kalo satu divisi "diem dieman"...sementara mereka seharusnya kerja sama......?

yang satu, sebut aja dia "A"...temen makan siangku....terus....dia tuh orangnya care...kalo aku sakit..daripada pesan ke operator..aku lebih suka sms dia..minta dia inform ke boss aku..and temen temen yang lain..(selebritis kaleee....) kalo hari ini aku gak masuk karena sakit....jadi...kalo ada yang mo minta tanda tangan..ato kalo ada permintaan show...gak bisa dilakukan hari ini...hehehe...
dan lagi..dia tuh yang kebagian ngitungin komisiku ...hehehe...makanya...gak ada ruginya deh punya temen kaya gini....

nah..yang satu itu katakanlah si "B"...wah...yang ini agak berat...semua orang kantor udah pernah dimusuhin and dijelekin ama dia, termasuk aku...oh ya...sekedar rahasia aja..dia pernah ngancam aku segala mau ngeluarin aku dari kantor...tapi..sampe hari ini aku masih disini aja tuh..hehee...
berhubung dia yang ngurusin orderan kita...so...kita kita kudu baek baekin dia...
and so far...aku punya hubungan yang "amat" baik ama dia...walaupun dia pernah jahatin aku kaya hell aja....
tapi yah...positivenya..gak ada ruginya juga punya temen kaya dia..soale...orderanku jadi lancar...and gajianku sering diduluin dibanding ama yang lain...hehehe....

so...berhubung yang berantem tuh cewek cewek .... aku udah bisa nyium kalo sewaktu waktu...pasti salah satunya bakalan curhat ke aku ..ato ngebelain diri sendiri..and merasa diri paling bener....and berusaha "sekuat tenaga" untuk ngejelekin rivalnya...
(kok kayanya aku gak asing ama type yang ini ya...??...hehehe)

so..sebelum aku di"brain wash" ama salah satunya...aku nanya dulu ke si A waktu makan siang bareng...eh, aku denger tadi ribut ribut ada apa...?
sekedar tau aja.....and biasanya sih si A mau terbuka and jelasin duduk masalahnya...

and..biasanya aku re-check lagi ama si B....dan ..si B juga cerita...

nah..dari dua "pendapat" and "persepsi" yang berbeda ini...dapat aku simpulkan kalo mereka tuh ternyata cuma miscommunication aja...so..when one of them come to me and try to "ngejelekin" rivalnya...aku udah punya "amunisi" buat nge"brain wash" balik....
so...posisi ku jadi netral...yah..memang sih...mereka jadi gak suka 100% ama aku..tapi..setelah mereka cooling down...mereka mikir loh..and found that what i said was right...
makanya..sampe sekarang....aku masih dipake jadi "freelance advisor" nya mereka atopun jadi "negotiatornya" mereka kalo lagi ada "cold war" gitchu.....hehehee....
yah..gak enaknya sih....sebagai advisor....aku gak dibayar...
tapi...positivenya...urusan orderanku jadi lancar...gajianku juga bisa lebih awal beberapa hari...lumayan...and kalo lagi mo ngitungin komisi...aku bisa tau "bocoran" informasinya without had to ask...hehehee....

coba..seandainya aku cuma ngebelain si A aja...ato si B aja...
gimana jadinya....?
so...it's good being neutral...and being right....

Oprah Winfrey's Show

2005-05-01T16:18:00.000+07:00

I spent my Sunday morning watching Oprah Winfrey's show...the topic actually was Viewers Follow Up...

Hhmm....i just noticed that what changed Oprah become a very famous and one of the most richest woman in the world....
When she was 8, a beautiful lady, Tish Hocker, walked to her after the Sunday Service at the Progresive Baptist Church, and said to her, that "she is beautiful"...

Oprah knew that she's smart, but, she didn't think that she's beautiful, thus made her felt so inferior....

but, this lady's words...this beautiful lady....change her whole life....

learning from what the effect of this lady words worked in her life, Oprah brought her staffs to Africa and gave 50 thousands gifts for the children there last Christmas, and she reminded her staff to say something positive to every children they met....

"you are beautiful"....
"your eyes are amazing"....
bla...bla...bla.....

The show had inspired so many people doing the charity works for the poor children...

This show reminded me of what is happening in my life these few months...
and how these powerful words build my life.....

Thanks Oprah, your show so inspired me...!!!!

Driving Again......

2005-04-28T11:35:00.000+07:00

yesterday.....after 2 weeks....never drove....

I felt a bit weird driving my car again.....

hhmm...but..i am satisfied enough with the mechanic's works....well done...
my car's bumper is just like a brand new one...heheee...
i've been told if it was not covered by the insurance, it would cause me at least 5million rups, only for my car's repair..excluded the other's car i hit....oh god...!!!....with the insurance, it just costed me hundred thousand rups...quite cheap..huhhh...!!!...hehehee....

so...i love travelling..and this car sooooo helps a lots...!!!...

Inspiration

2005-04-28T10:19:00.000+07:00

How do you feel....
if someone read your blog...
and inspired her/him to write blog about you....?

hhhmm.....
to be frank....
I feel so proud of it....
feels like you are a celebrity....
laugh out loud mode on)

I just noticed few days ago...when i had enough time to browse other's people blog...and "assumed" that she wrote something about me... and i do believe...she's been inspired with what i wrote before....heheehe...

hhmm...i think she should "at least" be a bit polite to say "thanks" for inspired her.....hehehe.....

Extravaganca Show 1st Birthday Trans TV

2005-04-26T08:26:00.000+07:00

It was played twice a week, at 09.00pm Saturday and Monday nite, on Trans TV...I saw some of their ads before but never been attracted till suddently i switched my channel and saw them there...I enjoyed for a while...and found that it was a very funny and attractive show...

Thus made me addicted to watch them again..if I didn't go out on Saturday nite, then I would sit in front of my TV and laughed out loud watching them ..... or went home earlier on Monday ... preparing my self for their show....

The comedians are Tora Sudiro, he dreamed to be Indonesian's "Jim Carrey"..I guess he had his shape already...heheheee....then Indra Birowo...Aming...the funniest guy ever..he could play as a girl..a hooker..a housemaid...a student...anything..heheee....i love to see him...hahahha...Tike... Virni...Ronald...and Ronni..the most "biggest" guy ...
Their commedies are so fresh...funniest...and so natural....

Last nite was their 1st Birthday....Happy Birthday Extravaganza...!!!

Now...they had another 3 new player in the team...2 girls and a guy....

I hope that they will be more attractive...funnier...and more entertaint for the future....as that will help more for this country which had lots of sadness and suffers these few days....thus we need to laugh out loud...

Singing Beggar

2005-04-25T09:02:00.000+07:00

It's been almost a year i didn't take bus to my office...
since my car's wreck and it should stay in the workshop for weeks...i got to take the bus, aircon, to my office...

Yeah...since the car was in workshop..it caused lots of transportation problem for me...but...i still can take the cab for visitting my customer anyway...hehee....

I used to spend my 15 minutes on the bus by reading books...I need the knowledge for my soul...
i enjoyed the aircon bus...it's so convenient...affordable...cheaper than busway..and it was not so crowded compare to the regular or economic buses...yet it is better to take busway...but..i got to take another "mikrolet" and spend more money to reach the busway shelter...while I can just stop the aircon bus anywhere I like...I think that's the best way being indonesian people..hehehe......

but one thing disturbing me on the aircon bus is the singing beggars....

i used to sit on the middle of the bus..where there are not so many people around there...thus I could enjoy reading my book...but..that's also the favorite place for the singing beggar...he will sing right beside me...with his plucking of guitar...sing out loud with their terrible voice....and their music was so defeaned my ear...
once they finish with couples of songs...they would pass their small plastic bag around to all of the passengers....begging for their mercy...
just a tips for you..if you don't have any intention to give any money to them...just give them a smile and say "no" to them...or giving them sign using your hands which mean "no"...they will appreciate you...
don't you ever pretend that they don't exist or turn your eyes to other side while he was passing the bag to you...unless you want to hear they abuse you or curse you ....hehhee...

but..beside the bad singing beggars, there are some of them that could sing well...
I can't believe that they can sing that well...they never studied in a vocalist school...I thought they just love singing...
sometimes they sing a western song so fluently like the original singer...they even never learn English at school man...!!!
I had a favorite singing beggar before...and always gave him "more" than others singing beggar..since I think he deserve to be appreciated by how he entertained us with his amazing voice....

Like what had happened this morning...this singing beggar sang 3 western oldest songs fluently and amazingly...."Dream"..."Soldier of Fortune"...and ..."Sealed with the Kiss"...thus made me put my book off on my bag and enjoyed his songs and music....

before he finished with his songs...I looked for my walet and take out some money..and put it on his "circular plastic bag"..with a "thanks for your entertaint smile"...to him....

what a wonderful morning....!!!

Weekend

2005-04-23T21:22:00.000+07:00

If you are single....How will you spend your weekend...?

I used to have so many activities on my weekend...saturday and sunday...
I got to attend my French Class from 8 till 12am....having lunch...then sometimes met friends and hanging out together....maybe just listening to their "curhat"...being there with them...as i dun have much time at my working days for them....
and sometimes spending the nite listening the the live band at cafes....and my fave place of listening live music is Bale Air...but now...seems my fave band was replaced by other and and seemed no longer interesting...

I prefer to spend my Sunday morning staying at my room...cleaning my room...
or just spending time watching my fave show...Oprah Winfrey show...
and tune to my fave TV Channel, Metro TV...
then go to church and meet my friends there...

hope you also enjoy your weekend...

Indonesian Idol

2005-04-21T17:58:00.000+07:00

one of our church member, Judika Sihotang, is now competing in the Indonesian Idol 2.....

hhmm...actually we are at the same ministry...singer...we had served for the Christmas service together....
but i never talked to him....just looked at him from far....
he's kinda low profile person....
I admire him ....he's a very good singer.....
his voice had the character.....
his voice had the power.....
you know...if he sings.....you will know from the voice that it was him..without have to see the singer......so special....
and every time in a special event in my church...he would be choosen to sing soloist....

I still remember how good he sang the "Miracle"..duet with my other friend Dina....
woww...their voices are so amazing.....

and last christmas he also performed the duet with (i forget his name), he is the winner of christian song contest....they sang You Raise Me Up......and they hypnotized us........

Happy

2005-04-21T08:57:00.000+07:00

I wake up this morning and found that there is a new energy on me.....like a charged battery.....

woww....it's so fresh.....and I have that great motivation .....
you know... a happy feeling comes out from inside....
I dun no why....but I just felt happy....
It's just like my heart singing a beautiful harmony....
laugh out loud....
all stress are released out.....
feelings like once you conquer the Everest........
feelings like you win the million dollars lotere.......
feelings like you are in the best place ever you never imagine....
feelings like you are in heaven.....

it's just like a feeling when I'm in love.....
hahahaa...Am I...?.....

*smile mode on whole day*

Love vs Poverty

2005-04-20T09:02:00.000+07:00

"would you leave everything you know and live in poverty to be with the man you loved?"

it's a good quote from a friend. I didn't answer him at once, but I thanked him for asking me such question.

Again, the question was "gladly" staying on my head ... on my dream ... and here I am writing this blog at 1.46am on my bed and still thinking about the answer of the question.

When I was a tenageer and this question come to me, I would be straight away saying "Yes, I will"..
But, if you asked me that question at my 30 age, I will stop.. and thinking for a while.. and asking back to you..."why you asked me this question"
If you didn't need a frank answer, thenI will answer you "of course yes" with my big laughs to make you happy..

But, if you are seriously ask and need a serious & honest answer from me, then I will explain to you this longer...

In my 30 age of life, I had passed the happiest and hardest time that you might never imagine..

I had travelled and had great holiday in the most expensive country in the world by my own, which was something so expensive for a girl like me as I didn't get any pennies anymore from my parents...Something that I can be proud of as I did it by my own money, while my behave friend do the travel using their behave parent's money..I have had my dreaming food....sleeping in a the best hotel....stitting in an expensive car and treated like a lady....Having all these luxurious and branded items which become a dreaming ....
and what else can I say...it's too many....

But..I had ever been in a very less poverty ..with not even a single penny in my pocket for days....and I had to walk far (as I couldn't pay for the even cheapest transportation)...to knock my best friend's home...begging her to lend me some money for buying some foods...I even do fasting as I was too shame to lend more money from her again....I had ever lived in a very bad place that I dunno how to describe it....as I dun want to have such memory again about the place....I was jobless...no money....sickness....no friends...no family ...around me to take care about me...and there are still many bad times and pains I had in my past life....

All these happy & bad times in my life....
And learn from how hard my mom had to work to feed us (instead of my dad)...had given me a lesson, that I should had my future husband richer than me, so that I will never trapped into the poverty anymore, and can enjoy life as the others.....

It was ME few years ago....

But, when I became a new born Christian, everything changed......

I still didn't say "YES" to live in a poverty with my love one...but I had found the truth how to spend my entire life with my future husband...

The bible command us to work for feeding yourself, and I do believe ....if we work...and walk in His ways...we'll be blessed..

Blessing doesn't mean that you'll be rich...
It doesn't mean also that you will stay in poverty...
I had a great testimony from my senior...I knew her and we had a very close relationship..since she was single...and till now she had her second baby...

When she married her husband, she's already had a good career as a finance manager in a shipping company, while her husband was only a technician, and you know, talking about their income, his husband just had 25% salary from hers....
But now, after couple of years, she left her company and being 100% housewife, and let her husband take the lead to feed them...and they have a very good income and living in a prosperity....
When I asked her, why did you marry this guy which had less income than you...?
She smiled and said "Yes, it's not an easy decision. He had less income than me rightnow, but I saw something different in this guy, he loves God, he loves his family, and he was a hard worker. God says that if both of us work together, He will bless us. That's why I married him....."

Her testimony had opened my eyes...and gave a big change in my mind...

I also had a friend....he had worked for an interior company which was paid on project basis...once he get the payment, he got to save it....as he didn't know when will be the next project come...another 2 months...3 ...or maybe next year....
But this friend, he loves God....and did not want to stay in this uncertain income. He want a better life..and claimed that God will bless him...thus he worked for a very taugh jobs..and he made it successfully....
3 years ago...he told me..when he went to a restaurant...he will concern about the right side of the menu which contained of list prices, and searched for the cheapest food to order which was affordable .....
but now, he didn't care about the price anymore, he will order the best food without had to worry about the price....

I heard a lots....I can't tell you one by one ......
I concluded that ...working smart and hard..and walking with God...I will be blessed...

Now...back to the question ....

I will answer you that I don't mind love someone that might had lesser income than me...and leave everything to be with him...but one thing for sure...he had to love God...and had a great willingness to work smart & hard..taking the responsibility of leading and feeding the family...in a legal manner.....
As I do believe...if we work together ..and walk in God ways...we need not to worry about our future.....

That's why I choose to leave him...as I know we had different faith..different way of thinking....He didn't love my God..he even dun no my God...and the bible clearly says that black & white cannot stay together...you can't stay in a grey area....you got to choose,.....being black..or white...and I choose to stay in my "white world"....
even he is a hard worker..I don't think that we will be blessed in our marriage life...

Marriage is not an evangelism that God want us to do for Him...
You can't stand in two boats at the same time which had different destination...
as at one point you got to choose....

There's a good statement ....
"you better stay single rather than marry a wrong man"...
as for me...marriage is not a game..a trial and error one..
but...it's a contract...once in a lifetime...and will be ended when one party died....

I didn't say that I am a very good Christian..
I did a HUGE mistake last year...
but I found the truth few days ago ..that God is STILL praying for me
so...I will try my best to get back to Him again....
even sometimes I failed....
I will try ...and try...and try...

I think this is my longest blog I ever wrote...
can you imagine if I woke up at 1.30am everyday and start writing blog like this for almost 2 hours....I will have a "novel" by the end of the month.....hahaha....

hope you enjoy it...

Ambitious

2005-04-19T11:49:00.000+07:00

"I gave you this account for you, my AMBITIOUS girl"....that's what my boss said few months ago to me.....I smiled to him afterward....

but...this word "ambitious" is still staying on my head till today....

Did I really that ambitious.....?
What this "ambitious" means to my boss.....?

I don't think that I am that ambitious as he said.....

I have sales target to achieve in my job...and I have to do my best to achieve it...
I like doing activities (it's one of the reason why I got to have the long week rest..heheeh...)..then I will keep me busy with the activities.....
I love to get orders from a customer which was not belong to anyone else in my company...
I need lots of money which I can get from my jobs....that's why I am hungry of orders....
Did these reasons make him named me "his ambitious girl"......?

Am I really that ambitious.......?
Yeah....I might be an ambitious girl....for my jobs....
I had big desire to learn everything....big curiousity about new things....

but one thing for sure....
I am not ambitious for a thing called "LOVE"....
for me...
Love is something natural.....It will come and stay in your heart at it's time....
The more I run to catch it....the far it runaway from me.....
The more I spent my time and energy trying to grow it in my heart ..... the harder and longer and even it become vanished at the end ......

Trying hard to learn from the past......
Since first I was introduced with this kind feeling.......
It never grew......It even had no chance to grow......even I had tons of effort to enrich my love...?
Did I still have the chance to grow my love for the future.....?
Do I deserve to let it grow....watering it with laughs and cheerfulness....and see it bloom as beautiful as it can....?
Or shall I cut it off, again, as what had happened to me, for other people's happiness....?
will other people think about my happiness....?
think about my love that had no chance to grow.....?
If I prefer to cut my love off...and let the other get it for their happiness....
Will they do that to me......?

Wise man said that "there is no love without sacrifice"....
my question..
Will I get the "love" after sacrifice this far....?
Is that worth enough to be with him and his love...?
Will I regret after give this sacrifice....if at the end of the day he decide to be with the other girl....?
Is it me, only, that have to sacrifice, while he isn't...?

So.....
Is this called "ambitious"....?
Letting my love gone to other.....?

Hhhmm....
Maybe I need to apply this "ambitious" not only for my jobs...but for my "love" case....hahaha.....

So for my future love....
I will not let other take the love from my heart once I found the right man on the right time on the right place.....
It's all enough......
I will fight for my love....and my happiness....
happiness is not a gift....It was something that will need efforts to make it exist and last forever....

So...I want to welcome ....
one more "ambitious" in my life...

LOVE AMBITIOUS ......

for my happiness ever.....
*laughs mode on*

Friendship....

2005-04-16T20:06:00.000+07:00

One of my favourite TV Serial is "Sex & the City"....

sttt...don't get me wrong...
it's not about the "sex"...as you can find more from the porn film rather than in SADC...but what most attracted my attention is the Friendship among the gals.....

I was dreaming about this kinda friendship.....
4 girls..with totally different character.....
single....beautiful.....fabulous....good career...with a perfect friendship ever....
Shared their loves....their cares....their lives....among the others....

Is that kinda friendship a real thing in the world....?..or is it just only in the "TV Serial"...?..hehehee...

Ohanami Night

2005-04-12T14:53:00.000+07:00

My office's secretary asked me to replace her on the Ohanami Night at Nikko Hotel last Friday (2weeks ago), since the event will be held from 6.30pm till 10pm...

So...there I was....

As usual...since it's something new event for me...I took a look at the invitation...learned the schedule....and called the girl as stated on the invitatino..
What was the dress code....?
Who were the attendances...?
Did they provide dinner....?

They said ...nope....only snack....walah walah...goshhh.....no dinner....it's from 6.30pm till 10pm..and no dinner...???...it's weird for me as it's actually dinner time...anyway...it's fine..since it's free..heheee......
So...I considered to have my early dinner (baca: nasi goreng) at 5.30pm before walked to Nikko which is next to my office building...while having my dinner.....I started to browse my PC...searching for "Ohanami Night"....

I found that "Ohanami Night" was basically a big picnic where everyone gets drunk while admiring the cherry blossoms....

fhuhfffh....hhmmm....so..we would enjoy the cherry blossoms.....amazing....

I reached the Ballroom at 6.30pm as scheduled....and found that the room was still empty...and ...goshhh....I saw lots of food provided there...!!!!
"she said "no dinner, snack only"....but I saw..rice...fried rice...chicken... beef ...vegetables .... cakes .... fruits ...pudings ... coke ....hhhmmm...so...their "snacks" was so "heavy"....hahahhaaa.....

How about the Ohanami itself...?
when I arrived ....I saw 4 (four) girls on the stage with Japanese music instrument...I guessed...maybe Indonesian girl playing Japanese music...hehehee....but...you know....again..I was wrong....they were invited directly from Japan for playing the traditional japanese music instruments for the Ohanami Night ...wowwww.....

Since they didn't provide chairs for us...so...we initiatived to sit on the floor....
I thought that I would find Japanese atmosphere here...and started to search for this cheery blossom....but...instead of "admiring cherry blossom"...we were sitting there admiring "Wong Pitoe".....a comedy music group....hahahaha......

But...they sang so good.....and I really enjoyed it with all those secretaries..sales managers...finance managers....etc......
We sang together....laughed together.....being entertained well....and of course....the door prizes....

First prize winner would have a return ticket Jakarta-Spore-Jakarta...
2 return ticket Jakarta - Bali - Jakarta with accommodation...hotel voucher....TV 21"...washing machine.... rice cooker ..... gas stove .... spa vouchers .... dine vouchers ....bla... bla.... bla.....

wowww....

I left Nikko Hotel at 10pm .... with a big smileeee.....
what a wonderfull weekend....!!!!!

Bed Rest & Accident....Again...??

2005-04-12T11:09:00.000+07:00

Finally I found the result of my blood test, and confirmed that I got typhus..oh god...I knew it..!!
The test result was not that satisfactory, I hope to see all are "negative" since I already had some medicine to reduce the temperature in the 3 last days....
this means that I had to take some more "bed rest"....a kinda activity i hate lots....
I think about staying at the hospital(I knew well that I couldn't keep my body stay on the my bed), but, thinking about the others's "sick" patient around me..it's so scared me ....i don't think that I won't be better staying with the other sick persons left & right...hehhe....

maybe this is the perfect way for giving my body "a holiday" for couple of days....as they are forced to do lots of things that they don't want to do....hahahhaa....

one more thing....yesterday morning..on my way to the laboratory, I hit a car..!! I was so surprised I could be that careless....thanks god no one was injured..as my car was a bit slow...and his also...and the other good news is he's chinese & christian..so everything can be negotiated....

That's why I am here ..in front of my compie at office..writing my blog..after handling sucessfully the insurance matter (I don't have to drive and send my car to the insurance office & workshop, they will do that for me..woww..)....and again..seems that God loves me toooo much...and He listen to my prayer this morning...so that everything go smoothly as I wish....Thanks God..You're all the best I ever had...!!!

So...i will be on my bed for the rest of the week...having my daily-porridge-menu-with-chicken-Lily's-made-soup....hehehee....watching DVD...and enjoy my BED REST...

Affair Story - Part 3

2005-04-06T09:40:00.000+07:00

If you are single (and fabulous..hehehe....)
What will you say if your friend asking for advise for the marriage affair...?

It's such an honour for me as my friend trusted me and told me about the whole story from A to Z...
the problem was ....
I never got married and dunno how to advise her....
All I could share with her was...
There are no positive point of having the affair...

She had husband...he had wife and children...
Will he leave her family for her...? NOPE...
Will he leave his career for her...? NOPE...
Will she be happy with the affair...? NOPE...

so......as usual..i never give her a decision...
she should decide it...and take whatsoever the risks....
again...my sanguin friend ..never grew up and couldn't make decision...because she dreamed too much....hahaha....

One interesting question....
Why he had an affair with her...while he had a beautiful rich & charming wife...?

for prestige...?
for fun....?
for money....?
or,
for sex....?

Is woman created for such things in his eyes...?

Sometimes I think it's totally unfair for a woman....but...
I believe there are lots of men outside there had been cheated also by woman....
so....
where is this world going to rightnow....?

walah...walah....walah.....

*shaking head mode on*.....hehhehee

Affair part 2

2005-04-06T09:00:00.000+07:00

I just wonder why i heard lots of this kinda "Affair" matters around me....
and it made me couldn't stop to think and questioning about it...

I had a bad experience with this "affair"...
I might be a "brokenhome" children if my mom didn't fight for her family..when she smelled the "affair"....I admired my mom that fight for her family she loved...
and she taught me so well ... so that i won't be an affair lady in my future life...

not to love someone that already had a lover...
not to love someone that already had a wife...
(even he promised to seperate with his wife for me..)
with all the consequencies....heartbroken...or whatsoever...

i do that as i am a winner...not a looser....

because...if he can do the affair to her loved one because of me...
there are thousands of posibilities he will do that "affair" to me because of someone he love after me...

If only I could have that moment over again....

2005-04-01T12:57:00.000+07:00

I spent last night watching IF ONLY..

Starring by Jennifer Love-Hewit & Paul Nichols..it's an awesome romantic film ever....

one question....if you have 24hours to live....what will you do....??

cherish the one you love...

the moments you have...

as you never know...

when it will take out from yourlife...

this is the review:
A movie about second chances, If Only is remarkably forgettable. Yet another Valentine’s Day special, some love-stricken couples may find the movie delightful. The rest would hope for a little more spice in this bowl of cheese.
A young couple are in their final days together before Samantha (Hewitt, an exchange student from the US studying violin in London) has to return home. She is blindly in love with her English boyfriend (Nicholls) and is looking for a long-term commitment.
Though he loves her, he is too preoccupied with work and life, to ever make her believe the extent of his love.
But when his impulsive musician girlfriend, Samantha (Hewitt), dies in an accident shortly after they’ve had a fight, this grief-stricken British businessman gets a chance to relive the day all over again — in the hope of changing the events that led up to her getting killed.
He realises his folly, and spends his new given day like it were his last. Within that 12-hour spectrum, he lets himself love like he has never before. He gives her everything she has been longing for in the course of their relationship — closeness, intimacy and unbridled affection — the perfect day. It’s a film that plays with the thought we have all had at one time or another,

"If only I could have that moment over again.”

Dilemma

2005-03-31T10:56:00.000+07:00

Now i dun no what is the feeling i have inside my heart....and my mind...

Dilemma....

it's a month since first time i chatted with her...and I enjoyed it...
it's still weird for me ...that we became friend...and the relationship...
it's weird since we have lots of things in common...
she's asthma...me either...
she likes the singers i like...
she likes travelling...me, too...
and we love the same guy at the same time...
and we are friend...

don't you think that this kinda relationship is weird..?..or is this just my feeling...?

it was 85% forgetting-him-progress when i started to chat with her...
i just need another 15% to completely forget about him...
but...
now i am facing this dilemma....

can i forget him 100%...?
did i still want him back to my life...?
can i let her got her happines with someone-made-me-in-love-and-screwing-my-day before...?
Did i sincerely say to her that she deserve for her happines..even if she decided to go back with him....?
will i come to their wedding party, shake his hand and say "congratulation" with a wide sincerely smile...?

I even do not know who should I trust now...him or her...?

My "experiences" told me NOT to trust anyone except yourself...does it apply for this case...?

How can I trust her or him...? of every single words they said...?

I hate having this so called DILEMMA...but now..i can't resist it...i have to face it...

I told her that I wanna be friend...and I mean it...
I told her that she deserve for her happinese...I mean it...

I think I need sometime to clear up my mind...

Rujak Juhi

2005-03-31T10:05:00.000+07:00

Last Friday when i was shopping with Kak Naomy, my vocalist teacher, i was attracted seeing the waitres serving Rujak Juhi when I bought some kerupuk for my dinner...

gak tau apa karena gue yang lagi laper banget...ato emang itu makanan menggiurkan...yang pasti..gue langsung order 1 porsi Rujak Juhi...

Udahannya baru bingung...gimana makannya ya...soale aku juga udah pesan nasi goreng seafood for the main course...ya..aku pikir..ada Kak Omy ini lah..ntar minta dibantuin aja..hehhee..that's the good point having a dinner companion...hahhahaa...

hhhmm...setelah dimakan emang enak ternyata...gak sia sialah aku makan rujak juhi...
setengah gak percaya...aku lewatkan begitu aja kesempatan untuk menikmati rujak juhi..setelah 10 taon aku di jakarta...kenapa gak dari dulu ya aku kenal rujak juhi ini...hiks...hiks..hiks...
padahal lumayan loh buat memenuhi hasrat ku yang luar biasa untuk makanan yang ada embel embel "rujak"..gitu loh...hehehe...

yang herannya...sejak makan rujak juhi hari jumat lalu...aku jadi ketagihan en pengin makan lagi....

tapi..ampe sekarang blon kesampean..hiks..hiks..hiks....waduh..kalo ngidam...bisa sakit perutku ditendang ama si jabang bayi...hehehe...

Nah..buat yang punya dapur..and pengin nyobain ngerasain rujak juhi buatan sendiri..ini nich resepnya..(aku ambil dari salah satu resep online..hehehe..thanks anyway)

Bahan:
250 gr. mi telur basah, cuci dan kukus 10 menit
2 buah tahu besar goreng, potong
2 buah kentang rebus, kupas dan goreng
1-2 buah mentimun, cincang kasar
100 gr. juhi (cumi kering), goreng atau panggang sampai matang, cuci dan suwir-suwir
Kerupuk sagu
Daun selada
Saus Kacang

Cara Membuat:
Susun potongan lontong pada pinggan, letakkan irisan daun selada, irisan tahu, kentang, mentimun, dan juhi.
Siram dengan saus kacang, beri kecap manis sedikit dan taburi dengan kerupuk sagu.

Untuk 3-4 orang.

Nah...mudah kan...jadinya harus yang kaya gini loh..kalo gak persis..berarti ada yang kurang...kalo udah berhasil..jangan lupa ngundang aku buat nyobain yah...biar ketauan..rasanya sama gak ama yang aku makan di foodcourtnya WTC Mangga Dua...hehehe

Quote of Today..

2005-03-28T19:43:00.000+07:00

Sooner or later...

those who win...

are those who think...

they CAN...

If you think you CAN...

You CAN...

and if you think you CAN'T...

You're right...

Rossa's huge fans

2005-03-28T19:39:00.000+07:00

hehehee...i dun know since when i was so addicted with Rossa's songs...

hhhmm...maybe we have the same "voice character"..so that i love all her songs....
the falsetto...the harmonization...the rythim....the lyrics....
i love them all...

and some of the lyrics..represent most of my feelings these few days.....

Lost Order...AGAIN...???

2005-03-28T19:27:00.000+07:00

I can't believe it...!!

I lost 2 orders within a month..with a "huge" amount...and at least half margin profit...??

what had i learned from these cases...?
= never trust your customers =
= talk to anyone in their company =
= check with anyone in the company =
= never make a deal if the order is not on hand yet =
= never delayed any single inquiries =
= keep in touch with everyone in the company =

any others......??

Studying Saturday

2005-03-28T19:17:00.000+07:00

I think it was totally right to name my Saturday as a studying day...

I spent 4 hours at the French Class..learning French....and continued attending the Investment Training from 2pm till 9pm....

Woww....do I become a smarter girl...??

Tired Friday

2005-03-28T19:00:00.000+07:00

I spent my Friday going to the gym..and met Once for a bit brifing...

kak Omy, my vocalist teacher, came earlier than the meeting time, which is 1pm....so..i have to leave the cell gathering to mangga dua ...searching for the singer's uniform...

we started from 1pm till 7pm ...
from Pasar Pagi ...to ITC...continued to WTC Mangga Dua...
I hate going to Mangga Dua..
too many people...so crowded...dun have space for even breathing...

it was sooooo tireddd....we had to walk for almost 7 hours..and still i had to drive home...oh god...hampir pingsan kecapean aku....
ternyata nyari seragam buat banyak orang tuh gak mudah ya...
masalahnya jumlahnya juga gak banyak..hanya 6 orang, but, the problem is..masing masing punya size sendiri sendiri...dari S, M, L, to XL...kebayang gak sih....
mana harus nyari kostum yang cocok buat di panggung...sementara kalo modelnya biasa biasa aja ..gak bagus jatuhnya kalo kena lampu sorot...
waktu ketemu model yang cocok..ehhh...sizenya yang gak ada....
syebell dehhh....
makanya aku bilang ama kak Omy.."kalo ada yang berani komplain, tak suruh beli sendiri aja"..emang enakkk...hehehe.....

waktu habis dinner...tiba tiba mataku kunang kunang...kayanya tekanan darahku turun drastis...kata kak Omy, mungkin karena kecapean..buru buru suruh aku minum obat..tapi aku bilang ama dia..aku tuh gak pusing...cuma rasa rasanya mau jatuh aja...so....kita jalanya pelan pelan aja....gak tau deh..apa bener bener karena kecapean..ato mungkin ditambah lack of oxigen gitu..jadinya tekanan darah ku turun..tapi apa hubungannya antara "lack of oxigen" en " tekanan darah" ya?..maklumlah..aku gak sekolah kedokteran..jadi gak tau..hehehe..

Long Weekend is Coming...Yayyy...

2005-03-24T14:46:00.000+07:00

Talking on the phone with my friend Yuli is one interesting thing to do at office when things get bored...she knew lots of thing to gosip with..hahaha...

from the cheapest to most expensive resto for dining....
from the opening new cafe till most hottest club in town for clubbing...
from the nicest to the worse mall in jakarta ....
up to 70% sale for branded item at SOGO or METRO...
the latest issues at church...
the hottest gosip of celebrities...

except computers......hahahaha.....

I spent lunch time with all the gals at MTM at Electronic City...I saw some guys jealousy looked at Sigit, my colleague, as he brought6 charming & beautiful girls behind him...hahaha...the foodcourt...crowded...continue "window shopping" at the electronic goods downstair.....then went to Millenia for some shirt shopping...and reached office at 02.30pm....walahhhh....hehehee....boss is out town...hahahaha.....

Long weekend is coming!!!

I'll spend this weekend with full of activities...but not because i WANT to ....but i HAVE to...

i hate to do something that HAVE to do...but I still HAVE to do it....

Fear

2005-03-22T18:52:00.000+07:00

it was i had everytime i woke up these few days...

Fears about something...
Worries about something...

but dunno what was that....

and dun wan to think about it...

French Class

2005-03-21T09:34:00.000+07:00

hehehee...last saturday was my first French class at CCF....

it's a HUGE pressure since the Mademoiselle spoke French during 4 hours...and I didn't understand every single words she taught....and so did my neighbours....

i was late for 15 minutes..and didn't get the conversation paper ...the teacher told my neighbour to share hers with me...
after a while..we finished the material on the conversation session...she waved the conversation papers and asked "something" from us...
"the waiving paper" had raised an assumption on my mind that she asked for this query "who didn't get the conversation papers?"...so...with "kinda assumption"..we (3students) reflectly and confidently raised our hand, "answering" her query....
seeing some hands were raised up...she pointed to the guy who was sitting in front of her, and, again, said something in French....
the guy showed his "confusing face" to her instead of saying something...and this forced her to, again, ask something in French.....

I believe you guys know what happened in the next minutes...the class was so noisy with these laughing...since finally we understood, what the Mademoiselle said in the first time she waived the paper..."the waiving paper" means "is there any questions"...which we perfectly wrong translated her point....hahahhahaa.....

I was so exciting about this French class, so, once i finished the class and met up with my French Principal..I told him i just finished my class..and practised my initial sentences learned from the class with him....hehehee...

hhmmm....anyway...it's so interesting learning French..let me show you my first sentence in French...heheheee...

salut...!
Je m'appele Lily...
Je suis employe...
Et je suis Indonesienne...

Clubbing

2005-03-21T08:05:00.000+07:00

it was 10 years ago since the last time went to this kinda place...

but..it was totally different places....

ok...Friday nite...9.45 i picked Dave up at his hotel, and together with my frend, we went to Cafe Jalan Jalan..actually we were a bit confusing..where to go...i've never been to this clubs since 10 years ago..and know nothing about the updates...it's good since Mei Mei is quite a "cewek gaul"...(that's why i love to bring her for this kinda "entertainment"..beside it's safe going with her..hehee)..so..refer to her experiences....we finally wanted to try Cafe Jalan Jalan in Menara Imperium....
but, unfortunately it's still 10.30 when we reached there..there are not many peoples hanging around...i saw some younger guys & gals.. drinking & smoking..dancing & laughing....we tried to enjoyed the live music on the upstair, I saw him enjoying it..hehee...but, since not enough spaces for him dancing and the place is "so silent" for a "clubber" like us...hehee..so...Mei Mei suggested us to move to CJ at Mulia hotel....

there we were at 12....

wow....now i didn't see any space for dancing anyway...
it was so contrary with the first place....
people were so crowded..the music was so loud....
and ... most of the guests are expat...western & indian guys..local ladies...with sexy tank-top..sexi dancing...

they're playing the Brazilian music...complete with "brazilian dancer girl"..picked up from the "volunter"...

We stayed for about 2 hours....enjoying the music...i was so surprised..my body shaking as an effect of the music...hahahaa...

We left the bars at 2 o'clock...and jokingly asked Dave whether he wanted to continue to another bar..BC..located in his hotel....and..he seriously agreed with the idea...oh my goodness...i was just kidding him...but..anyway...i couldn't keep my "garfield" eyes any longer..so i just dropped him out, then went home with Mei Mei..since I had to take my French class at 8 o'clock...

I heard he stayed at BC till 5 o'clock...goshh.....

Robbery..Pencopet...

2005-03-17T16:42:00.000+07:00

Tadi malam kaget banget...soale pas di perempatan lampu merah Hayam Wuruk - Samanhudi...waktu lagi asyik asyiknya ngobrol ama Ayu...
tiba tiba ada yang datengin mobilku..en langsung nunduk...do something at my tyre...
aku pikir paling juga pengamen gitu...baru aja aku mau lambain tangan..tanda tak mau ngasih sepeser pun..
tapi kok ya dia terus terusan nunduk gitu...
waktu "hampir" sadar....ternyata dia lagi ngerjain list dashboardku...

ampunnn....

aku baru pertama kali ngalamin kaya gini of course jadi panik...and reflectly aku pukul tuh klakson ampe jari jariku sakit semua..(baru berasa sakit waktu dah nyampe rumah..)...

tuh...liatin hasil karya si "pencopet"...

list dashboar pintu depan

Mistake

2005-03-17T09:11:00.000+07:00

"Let him among you who is without sin be the first to send a stone at her"....

the words "without sin" was attracted me...

who never did sin...?
who never made mistake...?

I made a HUGE mistake and a HUGE sin last year...and it costed me a lot....

I lost something SO important...
I lost all my savings...
I've been cheated by someone that I invested all my loves to him...
I've been cheated by my brothers & sisters....
I didn't go anywhere....
I was intimidated by these guilty feelings....
I had no brave to achieve my goals...
I lost lots of valuable opportunities...
and most important...
I lost lots of valuable time in my life...

and I was so afraid that everyone will "send all the stones" on me because of the mistakes and sins i made...

it was so gratefull as it was said by someone who had no sins at all...to all the sinners...make us clearly understood that no one had NO mistakes or sins in his/her life...
therefore, you don't have the right to judge someone because of what he/she had done, as you are also a "mistake producer"...

All these mistakes & cheates reminds me of what Jenny had said almost 7 years ago...
"kamu jadi orang jangan terlalu baik gitu... makanya kamu sering di"cipoa" in orang ..aku gregetan deh ama kamu tuh"...(i do not know how to say in Dutch, Carla, would you please translate it for me, pleaseee ...hehehe....)

But I soon realized...the one that send the stones is only "my perfect me" who can't accept that i made mistakes...
Thanks god for sending "all the nicest friends" arround me to say that everyone made mistakes, so, forgive yourself...and go..start your new life...

He didn't stop at that words, but He continue "And I do not give a decision against you: go, and never do wrong again"....

so...
if He forgives me, why I can't forgive myself..?
if He command me "go"..why I still stay...?
if He said "never do wrong again", why i don't have confidence that i can't do it in a right manner...?
if someone so care about you, and want to see you reach your better life which you deserve for that..will you stil stay...or...?

Me...?..I will go and get it...because if He trusts I can do that, yes I will be able to do that...

Sleepy

2005-03-16T08:59:00.000+07:00

tapi malam tidur cepet...tapi gak tau kenapa kok ya jam 2.26 gitu kebangun..trus gak bisa tidur lagi...berhubung acara hari ini padat banget..en harus ke kantor pagi pagi...mau gak mau tak paksa baca hampir satu jam supaya bisa tidur lagi....alhasil..ngantuk juga sih..cuma heran aja...paginya kok ya bisa mikir yang aneh aneh gitu...mungkin karena kemarin kelamaan pergi ama si perancis...huahahaha....

makanya pagi ini ngantuk banget te....mana hari ini acaranya ampe malam lagi...hu-uh...

kalo lagi nyetir..syerem juga dengerin shockbreaker depan yang bunyinya udah "klutak klutuk"...moga moga bisa bertahan ampe sabtu ini...kalo gak..repot juga deh...

kok aku jadi ngomongnya ngarol ngidul ya...udahlah..mo ngopi dulu aja dulu....

Guilty

2005-03-15T08:51:00.000+07:00

I left my office at 6 o'clock last nite..but..dunno where to go..or what to do...

but..i also didn't stay at the office any longer...

all i need was sleeping..but...i knew well...i won't be able to sleep with a bunch of thoughts in my mind....

so...after driving for half an hour...i decided to have something for my dinner somewhere in Garuda street...

after reached home at 7 something...having bath...no good film on the tv...tried to sleep at 9...but..still it couldn't work....

what suppose i feel to be...?...
should I cry...?..or..
should I laugh...?
should I feel happy...? or
should I feel worry...?

NOPE...
instead...

I feel guilty...

I feel guilty because I told my friend about the affair...
I feel guilty because I let her "know" this affair...
I feel guilty because she felt hurt after knowing the affair...
I feel guilty because of her tears...her hurts...
I feel guilty because of my faults on the past...

but...

i will feel MORE guilty if i didn't do it...

whatsoever her decision...it's all up to her...
i will respect it...
since...
she deserve a better life for herself...
she deserve a better guy to accompany her during her entire life...
she deserve to be treated as a precious girl...
she deserve not to be lied...
and most important is...
she deserve for her happiness...

so...as I said before...
whatsoever her decision...
whether she still chooses that guy...
or leaves him...

I will respect it...

Bule Ganteng

2005-03-14T16:46:00.000+07:00

Hehehe...hari ini ada pemandangan bagus di kantor...kedatangan bule dari perancis..ganteng...ngasih training ke semua sales di kantor..
kebayang gak sih...satu cowok dikerubutin 7 orang cewek...?..hehehee...

kayanya dia rada grogi juga sih...waktu ngasih training agak terbata bata gitu...

hmm...berhubung sifatnya official...aku jadinya gak berani tampilin fotonya dia di blog ku ini...hehehee...

yah...betapa luar biasanya tuhan nyiptain makhluk yang ganteng kaya gitu...(dibanding temen cowok di kantor yang cuma sebiji..hehee)

Trapped in the Stairs....

2005-03-10T15:22:00.000+07:00

What will you do..or feel...

if...

you are trapped in the exit fire stairs....?..
and every doors on every floors are locked?
no way out....
except...walk to the ground floor for getting out from your frustation...?
can you imagine..
if you are in the 27th floor....?
with your high heel shoes...?

Thanks God i just need to walk from 6th floor to the ground floor....
It was so ridiculous.....

you know what i feel....??
I hate the security guy who didn't tell me that the doors are locked....
I hate myself for thinking about "walking is healthier"....
I hate my decision for taking the stair instead of waiting a minute for the elevator....

but...
thanks god that the stairs is surrounded by aircon...(my office building was nope)
thanks god that i just had to walk from 6th floor...(not 27th floor...!!!!)
thanks god that i wear shirt..instead of my thick blazer...(so that i was not so sweaty)
thanks god that even i wore the high heel shoes, they were so light....
thanks god that this time i didn't bring too many sales material, nor heavy catalogues...(only one bag & small agenda)....

so..because "thanks god" was more than "i hate"..so...
i will see it as something that can cheer up my day...hehehhee.....

Meeting Leandro & New Friends...

2005-03-10T15:15:00.000+07:00

Last nite Leandro, an Argentina friend from a website, who just stepped in Jakarta 5 days ago...called me and we arranged to meet up...

there..in Plaza Semanggi...at 6 o'clock...I thought that he will come alone...but..i was wrong...there are another 3 girls around him...haaaa????...(gak jadi deh Ge-Ernya..hahaha....)

Actually we never talked before...only an email saying that he will come to indonesia..and asking for some so called tourist information...so..i gave him what he need, and leave my mobile no in his email, in case if he get lost...

I think he's kinda guy that love sharing something with other....can be classified as "Sanguin"...he kept telling us about his country, his travelling stories (he loves traveling, me too,...hehehe...we became friend)...

the others girls are nice..they all are christian...so...i feel like "at home"...
here the picture of Sisil, me, Leandro, and Esther...